Last night was a super humbling experience. -sigh- I had rehearsal for Good Friday service. The band for the special item comprises of all the musical legends in my church and boy was I horrible.
Goodness, I am well aware that I am rather off form because of national service, but my standard of playing always sufficed for day to day service playing. However, flaws of my playing shows when I need to follow the metronome and I needed to be precise.
I felt like a little boy among the legends. They were discussing what was wrong with the chords, suggesting alternatives, while the backbone of the band isn’t being a good backbone. It doesn’t help when the drum shield isolates you. -sigh- help me.
Don’t get me wrong though, I am not too down or depressed. I mean, of course I am sad that I am not performing up the standard, but I am motivated to be a better musician once again. Perhaps I have grown arrogant in recent years. I am once again humbled.
I always tend to complain that I am off form. Honestly, that is just an excuse for not practicing hard enough. I am not off form, I am not treating my musicianship serious enough.
Passion is not enough. I need rock hard practice. Anyone can be excited about music being created, but only musicians that has the ability and technicalities can execute the music being created.
I have been too comfortable with my engineer mindset about being able to fix stuff in post. I now need to force myself to fix stuff in playing.
I still have a long long way to go. Work harder Kelv, be a better musician will you?