Praise to God comes naturally when you count your blessings.
Frustration comes when it is simple in your head.
Better to be a good beggar than an evil wise man.
What compels one to take action? What compels one to do things for others?
What compels one to do things in spite of inconvenience?
Lord, help me out. Rebuke this evil spirit in me. Rebuke my poor attitude and soul. Lord, may you be my strong fortress that those that run to it will find shelter and safety. Lord, help me worship you.
Quell my anger and my emotions. Make me look to you.
The devil is really crafty.
The way he steals the joy of serving is by telling you that what you are doing doesn’t have any meaning. That it will have more meaning if you do something else. He makes you envious of the people that could do the things you cannot.
Stand upon truth Kelvin.
There is no point wallowing in self pity. No, why are you even pitying yourself? Come on. Stand tall! Be proud that you are a child of God.
May the joy of serving my one and only God never leave me.
We shall see.
Just recently, when I took my dad’s car, I would hear both my parents coughing inside it. If this was the me before army, I would have not even bothered thinking that it is out of place. I mean, I cough and sneeze very often too.
However, when they started coughing this week, it became something foreign to me. I realised that I haven’t been coughing or sneezing like that for a while. For the first time in 21 years, my body is actually healthy. Coughing, sneezing and the like are all away from me.
Oh how amazing exercise is! It really is incredible. Never have I felt better in my body. As FMA would say, to train the mind, one must train the body.
You know it is really sad right when someone you were rather close to before becomes someone you dread talking to.
Whenever certain names appear on my phone, I would know it is about work, not about wanting to catch up or talk, I jut dread even opening up the message so much. Some of these people were some of the closest people I was ever with. It is rather sad.
Then there are those people whom you are still close, still looking forward to their texts but once it starts, the conversations dies down. These are sad too, because I have no idea how to move forward.
Then there are people you look forward to texting and is easy to speak to them, thank you for investing in me. I appreciate it! 🙂
The productions team just grew again, I dunno, I think we have become quite a closely knitted family. We are now a bunch of aesthetic loving people being Super critical over what we do. Very good! HAHA!
Thank you for blessing emerge Lord, never would I have thought that the team will have more people or that it would even grow into a team. I pray for more blessings Lord! 🙂
It had been a great 10 weeks with the Basic Course of my vocation.
Through all these ten weeks, I utterly enjoyed myself with everything they taught us.
I often catch myself praising how well done the course was in teaching us what we need to do. Something I find lacking in the place before this, but I found here was the fact that they actually train us to think and lead. Not that I am trying to discredit anything. There needs to be some more thinking for the place before this. They need to realise that we are educated to a certain extent, just treating us as someone that will think wouldn’t harm you know. What basic course has totally proven is that you can be both disciplined and humane at the same time. You can demand standards and still give good welfare.
It wasn’t easy of course. I learned a lot through the whole course. I learned the more niched skills like how to effect search and arrest, policing modules and access control modules. I also learned MANY soft skills like how to be disciplined to rid of bad habits, how to lead, how to give commands, etc etc. It was surely tough, but thank goodness it was fun.
My physical fitness improved A LOT. Running every Monday, Wednesday and Friday really helped. You have no idea how tiring it is to do cadence run at my warrant’s speed and still needing to sing songs and still needing to get the whole course together. Instilling discipline into is just made us disciplined to train as well.
I give thanks for my commanders. I have found favour in many of them. Some trust me in leading people during the exercises. Some commented that I was very patient and pitied me when I was going through the assessments. My own syndicate trainer even went the extra mile to recommend me to become the ICs for several exercises and wrote report for me to become the platoon best trainee. Which I got! HEHE!
I have really learned so many things within this 10 weeks and I give thanks for it. God has really blessed me with a lot.
I get to do a lot of ground work with good hours and interesting things to do and learn. Well, let me see how things go from now on. Things are looking up! 🙂