=117= Words of Melancholy: Emptiness

“Hey what are you watching?” A voice that came from the back startled me. It sounded like a female’s voice, not bright like a little girl, but it still had the sweetness to it.

It was strange. I was alone at home. My family went to Malaysia without me, there should not be anyone at home. Not only that, the question itself was strange. I was not on the computer, I was not watching TV, I was not watching anything in particular, I was just stoning on the couch.

As I turned around, I have both feelings of fear and happiness. Fear because I was uncertain if the person or thing that spoke was even physical. I had this thing for ghosts, I was extremely terrified of them. At the same time, I was glad that I wasn’t alone. Being the only one at home is really such a bore.

There was no one there.

Crap. I jumped out of my couch. What happened? I was still trying to figure out who and what had spoke when it spoke again, “Is watching this important?”

Our of fear and confusion, I shouted out into thin air, “Who are you?!”

“Does it matter who I am?” She or it replied.

“Where are you?” I asked while waving my arms around.

“Does it matter where I am?”

I freaked out. I ran out of my house.

As I ran to the park, I grew tired and started to walk. I gained composure and started to piece what happened altogether. Ok, a random voice just spoke, no body, no figure just a voice. I started to think of the possibilities.

Could it be a ghost? Well, he/she/it could have done a better job scaring me, I mean it(I am going to stick with ‘it’) did not even say anything really scary.

Could it be a friend that is trying to be funny and it was all a prank? Nah, that voice was very distinct and I never heard it before.

Could it be….

I did think for a good half an hour and I still could not come up with a proper explanation that made any sense. Now I am in a dilemma, I couldn’t go back home, I couldn’t go to my friend’s houses because what reason would I give them?

Luckily I brought my wallet out as I left, I could at least buy a drink and sit down at the coffee shop. So I stood up and directed my steps to the coffee shop.

“So what are you watching now?” The voice spoke out of nowhere.

“Oh my gosh!” I yelled.

“Wait wait wait! I do not mean to scare you!” Said the voice.

“Then what do you want?” I asked.

“To ask what are you watching” it answered.

“What?” The concept was just so silly.

“What are you watching?” It asked once again.

“NOTHING!” I exasperated.


The voice stopped.

=116= Comfort Songs: Unashamed

Unashamed by Starfield
I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I’m weak
I know I’m unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can’t explain
This kind of love
I’m humbled and amazed
That You’d come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete

Let’s just say today isn’t a very good day.