=121= Words of Melancholy: Disqualified

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

1 Corinthians‬ ‭9‬:‭24-27‬ NIV

What a reminder.

=120= Words of Melancholy: Passive

I need to remember, stop waiting on the perfect moment. There is none. If you are waiting for the perfect moment to serve, you are waiting in vain. There will be things you struggle with in different points of your life.

Always waiting on the perfect moment, always being so careful you will regret it. You are an idiot if you are always putting things tomorrow. Why are you always looking for the right moment, right vibe, right atmosphere? Sheesh, go all out, get out of your shell! Do not be passive, only to regret it later on.

I hate being so useless and passive at a time like this. God, why am I so useless? No what is worse, I am passive! God, I really can’t stand myself now. I am in such a horrible place. Lord, won’t you give me courage and strength? So I can give others courage and strength.