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=129= Gear I Want: Cymbals

Well, I have a snare and a cajon! Which is extremely nice! Very happy with it! Now, I want my own set of cymbals! Haha, but sadly, I cannot afford a set… 😦

Ok, you needa understand something, cymbals are something that is exactly what you pay for. There is no fine tuning and no replacement parts for it. What you buy on the first day is what you get. This is exactly why buying the right cymbals are so important. Let me describe my ideal cymbals.

Hi-Hats – need to be definite. Open hi-hats sound needs to be sizzling and not too jarring.

Crashes/Splashes – needs to be sensitive and usable for any kind of acoustics—which means, they are dark type cymbals. Cymbal swells need to be clean. It would be nice to have a nice bell sound.

Ride – need to be crash-able. When riding, there should be some wash so as to fill up spaces in a song. Bell needs to be cut but not jarring. Wash riding needs to be not jarring as well.

China – needs to cut. A little wash in a China is quite nice.

Every single piece should have a nice blend together. Now what brand? For the longest time, Zildjian Cymbals has been my favorite cymbal company, after all, Leb uses them and they are great. However, I want to have different cymbals then Leb. Leb has all the very expensive cymbals, like the Constantinople Ride and Crash. I am quite unhappy that You can only find Zildjian in Yamaha in Singapore, which is famous for jacking the price WAY too high. 😦

I wanted to get TRX cymbals, however, I tried their cymbals and they sounded meh. Their BRT splash was so annoying in Singapore Drum Shop. The sustain lasted for so long. Perhaps it is the acoustics but nah. So I tried the DRK, which was surprisingly good, it has a great raw bell sound with good stick definition. but the wash is just too much. I am seriously considering this, cause they have a 25% off thingy going on when you buy it as a set.

Paiste Cymbals. I actually really liked Paiste cymbals. The ones in the chapel sounded pretty good! However, there are a few problems. Leb complained about the ride being too dry, which I can’t judge cause I have not been to G2 service as part of the congre for very long. The cymbals were too bright as well. However, I recently checked out their sound on their website and their Masters series just impressed me. The hi-hats was exactly like what I wanted. I can’t judge the crashes. The ride was too washy. So I decided upon a signature traditional thin ride. However, I am not sure Ranking would have these cymbals and the price might be too much as well… :/

Well, it is a luxury item. I have this plan on going army and spending my pay on cymbals. Other gears I want as well:

A Brass Patina 13×7 snare. This looked extremely pretty. I want a snare drum that is different dimensions as Audrey. This was what I named in advance. Hopefully one day I will get it.

1964 ears V8 or V6 stage. I want customs. 😦

Recently I also did my research on dynamic and armature drivers. Apparently Dynamic drivers has a better bass response and Armature has a better treble response. So i was thinking why not have a hybrid model? So I found out that Null Audio has a model with one dynamic driver and two armature. I really want one. Gosh so nice sia. :/

I also want to try the IM50s! So cool sia, 88 dollars for a earphones with detachable cable!

Oh and I decided to wait for Black Friday to see if the Roland Drumset would be cheaper on Amazon. Hopefully they would. I really want a good product for practice.

So far these are all. However, I am very happy with what I have now! 🙂 Shure SE215s are super good. My snare sounds and feels awesome with the Hydraulic Black head! Ruth, my drumset has been my practice for control. I now have to really practice playing softer in order for my neighbors not to complain. So it has been quite well. Playing softer has allowed me to vary my dynamics more.

Thank you God for blessing me! 🙂

-Kelvin-

=128= Words of Melancholy: Eye Contact

This is not THAT Mel luhh. Hehe! I am feeling pretty great right now. 🙂

A flaw in me. Not making eye contact with the person I am talking to. I dunno about you, but I find it difficult to maintain eye contact with someone especially girls. I only noticed this when Mindez said that she used to not make eye contact, then she realised that it was very rude.

Eye contact is very important. After all, the eyes are the window to the souls right? Haha, yesterday I saw someone’s eyes and they were beautiful. For me, the most attractive part of a woman are their eyes. I would notice eyes that would really melt me. How ironic is it right? That I love a person’s eyes but I can’t maintain eye contact. Perhaps I am just too conscious. I really struggle to maintain eye contact. I shall be more conscious and be initiative to maintain eye contact.

Talking about eyes being the window of the soul, I really find that true. The eyes can reveal whether you have been sleeping well—eye bags around one’s eyes = have not been sleeping well/never sleep. The eyes can reveal if one is bored, happy, sad, angry etc etc. I think one of the most beautiful sights is a girl with tears in their eyes. Haha, I sound so weird… But something about tears that make the eyes look REALLY attractive. Haha, I have this desire to wipe the tears of a someone’s face as well. It is really comforting to have your tears wiped off by someone. Haha, let’s see! 🙂

-Kelvin-

=127= Melancholic Reflections: Terms

Wow, hey people from US! Thank you for reading my blog! 🙂 Please feel free to leave a comment! I would love to hear from you guys.

I often wonder why are there so many terms and test on personality. Introverted & Extroverted. Melancholic, Sanguine, Phlegmatic and Choleric. Love language test. A more recent discovery is the 16 personality test, which is pretty cool! Check it out here. For those who are keeping score i am an ISFJ which is pretty cool, but i have this obsession of being different and having one of the most common personality types is not cool…

Ok, back to what i wonder, why are there so many things on personality or rather, why are these test and terms so popular? I actually think that it roots from a desire that just wants to be understood and being able to relate to something. Everyone has moments when they feel misunderstood. Everyone has felt loneliness before. However, everyone responds to loneliness differently. One would wallow in self pity. Another would drive himself to other friends. These decisions are what shapes us and forms our personality types.

Haha, i sometimes think that these personality stuff are all cold readings. Wait, i am very sure they are! They are all based on speculation off the way the questions were answered. Sometimes certain adjectives describes everyone. I mean if you simply use a word like “warm” or “loving” to describe someone, i believe at least 60% of the people would be able to relate to the word. Sometimes it may be because they have a very bad or vague idea of what the word means. For example, if i asked you to tell me what is “love”, you will witness that everyone has trouble explaining it. Not only that, everyone’s definition would be different. What you will get from one person is different from another. One says it is a feeling another says it is an action. This is quite interesting, love is such a vague idea that there is the five love language thingy to help explain how one loves.

Relationships are complicated man. Not just relationships with the opposite sex. Relationships with guys are complicated as well. I have no idea how to react to the actions. Especially with strangers or friends that are not close. Should i joke around? Should i be serious? Should i be caring? I have no idea how to interact with a stranger. Gosh, just kill me. If i collected a dollar for every moment i was awkward, i would be a billionaire already!

Perhaps by understanding ourselves, it would be easier to approach others. Maybe another thing we could do is to read up on the person’s personality type would allow us to understand better! It is good! It is good that you are trying to learn how to interact with others! You are taking the initiative many people are not willing to. For me, i realised several ways of how to break the ice.

1. I would act extremely animated. Ok, Haha! I always think that this is a great way to break the ice with someone guys and girls alike. I mean if staying quiet is going to be awkward, i rather i be what you laugh at. At least there is interaction between us. However, this has it limits. I realised that this drains me a lot. So if i tries this again and again and you are not responding by laughing or continuing the conversation, i will simply die down and be stone instead.

2. Be real. Ok, this is the back up plan after being animated or what i do when i realise that i do not have the chance to be animated(for example, when you are going to do work with someone, joking around might be inappropriate). This is simply being yourself, not being animated just to attract attention. Problem about this is that you would reveal your insecurities to the other party as well. Sometimes, it is repulsive.

3. Initiate. Well, if you do not talk, i will go ahead and talk. Since i am a guy and i am designed to initiate and start things, i should be the first to talk. It may be awkward and all, well at least i am trying!

I really have no blanket cure for maintaining a relationship. I have a blanket cure for recovering from a heartbreak though. Pour everything out to God. Give your bitterness to Him. Then, OPEN YOUR EYES. People going through a heartbreak often have short sightedness; they are often unable to see their own blessings. So instead they wallow in self pity over what they do not have and they do not see how much they have. Trivial or not, this is very important.

Being a Melancholic myself i have an ability to think of many different situations and outcomes, hence, i would become overly pessimistic sometimes. As someone that thinks, logic is something that has to come into play. I do not like things that i do not understand. Too bad for me, no matter how hard they make a science out of personalities or love or relationships, even i would never understand myself fully. I would never understand others fully. So i go to the one that knows me the best. So in turn, i would know myself better.

On a unrelated note, i am really grateful for everyone in my life, I really give thanks for being such amazing support in my life. You have no idea how much i give thanks for you being by my side. I do not have much friends, so being there for me, spending time with me does wonders for me.

-Kelvin-

=126= Worship on/off Stage: Metronome

I never realised how this platform got attention. Recently when I check my stats there are actually readers of my blog! O_O some views are from US as well! That really surprised me! Thank you for bearing with my extremely emo posts. 🙂 Well, I am extremely depressed now, so please bear with me again. I have to get this off my chest.

I can’t keep time.

My timing is horrible.

I keep speeding up.

I am not trying my best.

Except, I am. I am trying my best. I really want to be a better drummer so I can serve God and play better hence give a better offering to God. That was why I agreed to using the metronome in rehearsals and services. I knew that my timing and tempo was not the best, so when Leb started using metronome in rehearsals, I thought it might help me. I just underestimated how difficult it was or how out of tempo I have been.

I tried using the metronome for the second time in rehearsals. It was horrible. I thought that the problem was with me being unable to hear the metronome properly. Hence I used the stereo mix to my advantage. I panned everyone off center except vocals and bass. So the metronome would be clearer. It was clearer, but the problem was not the volume of the click, the problem was with me. It was when Isaac said, “don’t follow the vocals, make the vocals follow you” that I realised where the problem was. The problem was how I keep time.

For this whole time, the way I kept time was I would sing to myself. It was what helped me keep time over the past one year and a half of serving. I was following the singers, not the metronome. So basically, in my entire journey of serving, I actually never knew what tempo to play, what speed it was; everything was based on approximation.

I remember reading on Leb’s blog that he felt horrible when he was recording drums for No One Else because he could not keep time with the metronome. Let me borrow a phrase from him, “can you imagine what is it like to be a drummer that can’t keep time?” Can you imagine how horrible it feels to be a drummer who can’t do his job properly? I felt so useless in the third song today. I am trying. I am. There is a reason why I hate the phrase “do, don’t try”. I mean, come on, how can I do without trying? I am giving my best, but it does not seem enough. Perhaps I am wrong, maybe my best is not not enough, my best is wrong. Now I am trying to make my best right, please bear with me in this period. I will have to try over and over until I get it.

This feels like probation once again. Foreign to the language that the band speaks, I am simply doing what I do; I simply play what I think is correct. Along the way, you know what to work on—right timing to do fills, dynamics—but you struggle to be able to do those things. Everyone around a you know that you are not playing the right thing, you know you are not, but you have no idea how to play the right thing because you feel overwhelmed with so many things at hand. You walk out of rehearsals with so much to work on. So you struggle. You struggle until you are able to do it. I may be foreign to the language of the metronome, but you are going to bet I am going to work the crap out of it. I am frustrated. I am not going to let it end like this.

Wrong motivation can be deadly. If I am working on this so I can be a better musician, I miss the whole point and should not be leading worship on stage. I should be motivated to do this because I want to offer a better offering to the Lord or to be able to lead people to worship smoother.

I guess the fact that I am playing drums is a huge fact that keeps me humble. I am always so loud, any mistakes, big or small, will be heard. So I have to strive for excellence. When I finally managed to do it, if I am arrogant again, I simply have to play a new song and be horrible at it, that will remind me to be humble. l am constantly reminded of how much there is to learn and how far off I am from perfection. If I settle, that is stupid, I may be at level 20 but I need to be at least level 60 to be able to (pardon the Pokemon reference) defeat Elite Four.

I remember of how Dr Paul Brand wrote in his book that the Skeleton has to be hard to be useful. If not you will cripple the body from being able to run, jump or even walk. A skeleton is hard so it can free the body. Same way, I have to be hard as the skeleton of the song so that people can be free to worship.

Lord, be my comfort and assurance. Be my wisdom and strength as I prepare for this set and for other sets to come. Give me the power and confidence to be solid and steady. So that everyone can follow me as we lead worship.
Thank you Lord!
-Amen-

Sorry about this extremely emotional post. Thank you for being patient with me.

-Kelvin-

=125= Words of Melancholy: Constance

Haha! Ok this is NOT going to be emo at all!

I just found the name for my next snare drum! HAHA! “Constance”

I just watched The Theee Musketeers just now! Nice! Such a nice movie! Full of adventure! Constance is the love interest of the main character! She was so pretty! 😀 Haha, she has a very interesting personality in the film as well! Mysterious, warm, brave and intriguing. I also like that “Constance” is derived from “Constant”.

I am strongly reconsidering about whether am I a Melancholic Choleric or not. Of course the Melancholic part has always been there, but the Choleric part seems to have disappeared. I recently took a test and I got “Sanguine”. Not that I am not happy about that, but I always thought that I was not Sang at all.

Recent events made me realise that perhaps I am a Sang. I am not sure. I sure would not mind being a Mel Sang, after all a leader whom I look up to is Mel Sang. I would not mind being Mel Phleg either. After all, they seem to be the easiest to approach, wisest and both my mentor and co-cell leader are great people! 🙂

There is always this problem about teaching a cell. -sigh- There is a lack of hunger and attention span. My kids keeps getting digressed along the way as I teach. As a result, I kept thinking of activities/games to help them to focus better. It worked pretty well I guess. However, I realised that if I am always relying on games to teach, I am unable to give to bring depth to their walk. As a result, I tried to go deeper. I made them think. I discussed and showed them concepts. Here I meet a brick wall. How can I catch their attention while going deeper? Argh, Lord won’t you be my guidance and bring me wisdom?

Another brick wall is this. I noticed several bad habits among a few people. I have no idea how to approach them. I have a desire to teach them. To tell them what is the right behavior. What is annoying, what is not. Give me the ability to Lord.

Talking about teaching. I kinda received a calling. It is not a super fancy or flashy calling that reveals what I would be doing the rest of my life. It is a one step calling. This is like the calling I received to join CAMY. For those who did not know, my original plan was to finish N Levels, go to poly then audition for drums and vocal—I once had a desire to sing for God once, I dunno what God would do with that desire, let’s see—instead, he told me to try out for drums when I was sec 4. Interesting how that worked out, I became the only youth drummer apart from Leb(who is a everything drummer) this year. Who knew that would happen? Not me for sure. I thought that I would have like Marcus, Josh and Darren backing me, turns out no! I had to step up and be a better drummer(a task that I have been neglecting recently… Please motivate me Lord), be a better musician, from not daring to speak out to be someone giving suggestions for translations and parts. God has blessed me greatly. I did not receive a calling for cell leader to be exact. However, I did have a great desire to cell lead. I wanted to cell lead and not be left behind. Perhaps God put that desire in me? Haha, but I know that I really like cell leading and drumming. If you would have me choose one I would be in such a great dilemma. Haha, let’s just see what would happen.

I am sorry for digressing! I guess I am not very focused just like my cell kids as well! Hehe! Let me start from the beginning. I was seeking direction. I mean my life’s direction. I want a fixed calling you know. Missions. Full Time. Even being a pastor was alright for me. I just wanted something substantial you know. I was very bitter when SO many people received a full time calling and I did not during retreat. When I see my friends working with Kennaf to think about what they want to do to touch the congregation back then, I was extremely envious of them. I wanted to do something bigger. I wanted to do something bigger than playing drums for God in a worship team. Nothing. However, I wasn’t given nothing. When people like HuiShi and Sean asked me how to play drums I realised a deep desire that wanted to teach people again. That resulted in the drum crash course and teaching regular drum lessons on alternate Fridays.

I have a deep desire that wants to teach.

I really want to teach people. I like mentoring people. I like meeting them one on one and simply discuss and teach them concepts that they do not know about. I like it so much that I would stay until very late just to listen and talk to someone and teach them about something. I like it so much that I would initiate my own drum lessons. I like to teach so much. Gosh. That sounds like a really tough vocation man.

Haha, I thought about calling. It is such a strong word among the older people. They are most scared of the phrase “full time calling ah?”. Funny thing about it is this; let’s think about this idea.

What if God calls you to a position that you think have no use of you? What if God made you go through so much education only to call you to a place where you do not need it? For example, you had a full time calling to the church. So what you did was that you went to Bible school and finished your studies. Just when you were about to call your church to hire you as a pastor, God calls you to be the cleaner of the church. What?! I mean that seems like it is such a waste of your education. It seems to be wasting your skills away. However, that is not important, what is important is this, Would you follow God’s calling? Would you give up a your education just to please God? I dunno about you, but that sounds like such a difficult thing to do.

Esna once told me that no calling/service to the Lord is easy when you have to sacrifice much I any capacity. I guess sacrificing our education/jobs/scholarships is our offering to God. I guess I am taking this calling thing too lightly.

Teaching.

That is it. I do not know is it teaching in church, teaching in school, teaching drums, teaching the word of God. I do not know much about it. But ya, let’s just simply do our best and see what would happen.

Ok, maybe a little emo! Hehe!

-Kelvin-

=124= Comfort Songs: 忘詞

五月天 的 忘詞

嗯嗯 搭啦 我又 忘了

我應該應該應該應該唱什麼 我應該應該應該應該怎麼做

嗯嗯 搭拉 想起 來了
我好像好像好像好像應該說 我好想好想好想好想對你說

在你的面前我就變得很笨拙 就像是一個不斷忘詞的歌手
我練習過 彩排過 這個時候 卻又說不出口

喔你 你的溫柔感動了我 我 忍耐太久內傷太重
在 這一秒我一定要說 就算失敗 也不沉默

喔你 你的溫柔感動了我 我 忍耐太久內傷太重
在 豁出去的那一秒鐘 卻又忘詞 我噢噢噢

嗯嗯 搭拉 想起 來了
我好像好像好像好像應該說 我好想好想好想好想對你說

上一句好像是有關你的形容下一句好像希望你能答應我
我練習過 彩排過 這個時候 卻又說不出口

喔你 你的溫柔感動了我 我 忍耐太久內傷太重
在 這一秒我一定要說 就算失敗 也不沉默

喔你 你的溫柔感動了我 我 忍耐太久內傷太重
在 豁出去的那一秒鐘 卻又忘詞 我噢噢噢

在你的面前我就變得很笨拙 就像是一個不斷忘詞的歌手
我練習過 彩排過 這個時候 卻又說不出口

喔你 你的溫柔感動了我 我 忍耐太久內傷太重
在 豁出去的那一秒鐘 卻又忘詞 我噢噢噢

喔你 你的溫柔感動了我 我 忍耐太久內傷太重
在 這一秒我一定要說 就算失敗 也不沉默

 

Forgot Lines/Lyrics by Mayday

Mmm, Dala, I forgot once again
What should I sing I should should should should should should should be how do

Mmm Dala thought came
I seem to like it seems like it should be said I Really Want Really Want to say to you

In front of you I became very clumsy
like a constantly forgetful singer
I had rehearsed practice but can not say at this time

Oh you, you touched me with your gentleness
Waited too long, internal injuries are too serious
In this second I must say, even if I fail I was not silent

Oh you, you touched me with your gentleness
Waited too long, internal injuries are too serious
The second i walked out, i forgot the lines

Mmm Dala thought came
I seem to like it seems like it should be said I Really Want Really Want to say to you

Under the sentence seems to be related to the sentence seems to describe your hope you promise me
I had rehearsed practice but can not say at this time

Oh you, you touched me with your gentleness
Waited too long, internal injuries too serious
In this second I must say, even if I fail I was not silent

Oh you, you touched me with your gentleness
Waited too long, internal injuries are too serious
The second i walked out, i forgot the lines

In front of you I became very clumsy
like a constantly forgetful singer
I had rehearsed practice but can not say at this time

Oh you, you touched me with your gentleness
Waited too long, internal injuries are too serious
In this second I must say, even if I fail I was not silent

Oh you, you touched me with your gentleness
Waited too long, internal injuries are too serious
In this second I must say, even if I fail I was not silent


 

Ok, it is settled. Mayday is my favourite band. Such mastery of lyrics and amazing riffs and pieces. They are SOOOOOO good. 🙂

-Kelvin-