=201= Words of Joy: Indescribable

“Hahaha, alright! Let me tell you about this world!” He said enthusiastically. “This world is amazing. Can you imagine it? Alright close your eyes”

“This world is filled with many different things! Some of them are moving, some of them stay still. Some of them are there consistently, some of them happen only a few minutes. Some of them seen, some of them unseen.”

“Let’s start with ‘Oxygen’, Oxygen is the most plentiful element in this world. Every living being in this world needs oxygen to live. It will enter the body and come out as a Carbon Dioxide. So that means that Oxygen might run out one day, but it has been plentiful in this world for thousands or even millions of years, sustaining life! Isn’t that amazing? Without it, all living things will be in pain and life will end in minutes”

“Then let us go to ‘Water’, Water is another vital thing that all living things need to live. Water has so many uses! You can drink Water, you can use it to wash yourself when you are dirty, you can use it to cool yourself on a hot day! Water exists in different forms in this world! Ice and snow is the solid form of water! Did you know? Every snow flake is different and it is still beautiful. How incredible is that? That it can be so different and yet still look so beautiful. It can also exist at Water vapor. It makes rain possible. Water evaporates up to the sky and when it is heavy it will fall down as rain, cooling the hot day, providing water for plants in this world, also preventing droughts from happening! It also makes rainbows possible! When it falls, the sun light gets bended and forms a rainbow with so many different colours!”

“Oh let me get to the ‘Sun’! The Sun is this crazy light in the sky that only happens in the day! This world is positioned just right! It is not too close that it will burn and it is not too far that it will freeze! It is moving constantly so every side will have light shined on it. Not only that, because this planet is tilted, it has four seasons! It warms up this world! It provides light for so many different things. It allows living things to see. It will provide light for plants to produce food. It reflects off the moon, which is this piece of rock so conveniently orbiting around this world so at night, it will be cooling, but still having light!”

“Now to the “land” of this world. This land is not flat! It comes in so many different forms and shapes. There are hills, mountains, plateaus, volcanoes, plains and valleys just to name a few! They are beautiful crafted and for different purposes. Some dangerous, some not, but each and every form is beautiful in there own way. Mountains are high and dangerous to climb. However, more than half of humanity of this world depends on mountains for water! Plains are flat and ordinary, but where else will one stay? There is nothing more reliable. Nothing more stable to stay on.”

“The “plants” of the this world is very good as well! These are essential to this world because they are Oxygen makers! Without plants, no animals and creatures will exist! They are food makers! Everything we eat comes directly or indirectly from plants. Herbivores will eat plants to sustain itself. Carnivores will feed on herbivores. And omnivores have both options! So without plants, there will not be meat! Plants regulates the water cycle, it helps distributes and purify water! They are used for medicine, many herbs are used to aid the healing of the body! It will provide shade on a sunny day to make it cool. It provides wood that is strong enough to hold things, to sound good enough to make musical instruments. It can be used to make ships. It can be used as fuel for fire to warm you up at night. There is also beauty in plants. How can flowers be so different and be so beautiful at the same time? With vibrant colours and different patterns, it is art in itself! Flowers are not only pleasant to look at; they smell really good! It is not just flowers, leaves has different shapes sizes and textures for different uses. Some has a smooth surface, it is used to allow rain to glance off so that there will not be too much water that it kills the plants. If you look closer, you see that leaves are off different patterns as well. Some have perfect parallel lines on it, some have grain that you will never even imagine! Oh do not get me started on wood grain! Wood grain is an amazing thing. No creature can perceive the millions types of wood grain and colours. There are so many in this world! Bird’s eye, quilted, fiddleback and curly just to name a few!”

“Then finally “animals”, the creatures of this world. So many different types. There are different animals in different places. They have different features. A very unique feature is ‘wings’. Wings are shaped so that an animal can fly. Animals that can fly are called ‘birds’ they have light bones and body so they are able to flap their wings to push them up in the air. There is also this feature called “Gills”. They are used by fishes to breathe; to be able to take in dissolved oxygen in the water. There are many more amazing features of animals, eyes, mouth, legs, claws, teeth, husks, nails, skin, fur and scales just to name a few! Just who is able to conceive so much detail? To have different types of eyes, different types of legs, different types of fur and skin. Just how is all of that possible?” Concluded the man.

The patient listened in awe and said, “Wow, this world you described is just amazing! I sure would love to live there!”

The man replied, “You are! You are just not looking at it right”

=200= Resolutions

I went up and talked to Kennaf about my emptiness issue. Like I do not seem to be motivated to do anything. Perhaps I was just distracted from CNY? But that is just an excuse! So I want something more! I want more hunger. I want to desire God more! So Kennaf told me that you can’t get hunger out of nowhere, If you want hunger, you need to fast. How ironic right? However, when I thought about it, it made so much sense. You want hunger? Starve yourself(of things that fill you). You want more? Empty yourself first! Haha I don’t think I will be fasting from food yet luhh, but I did make a list of things I want to fast from. I hope by the end of the month I will have a healthier spiritual life. Spur me Lord towards a more righteous and more healthy life! Thank you Lord!
-Amen-

List of things to fast from:
1. Searching cool drum information on the Internet (stay away from Pantheon Percussion’s cool FB/Insta page)
2. Listening to music on public transport (read a book instead)
3. Using the Internet late at night when I have nothing to do (go do QT and sleep early instead/ spend some time to call your kids up)
4. Using the Internet when I have nothing to do (go swim you idiot!)
5. Looking at my phone when I am bored (distract myself with something else; a comic, a book etc etc)

So people who are reading, please keep me accountable! Help me with this (if you can that is)!

-Kelvin-

=199= Thanksgiving of the Week

Thanksgiving 22/2/2015:
Ran away
Nice text convo with Claire
Watched TBBT and HIMYM
Now gonna be late for the meeting
Got onto 109
Managed to help out on the audio
Got onto the last seat on the bus
Got time to spend with Mum
Got to school late
Good presentation
Good lunch with AVT!
Managed to buy Emerlin water
Spent some time playing truth
Managed to find practice time at home
Watched 118 (really like the drama! HAHA)
Good dinner
Got to go out with my family
Best sleep I ever had in months!
Managed to watch some episodes of proposal daisakusen!
Really sad that I can’t find the dvd anywhere
Vacuumed the carpet of my drumset
Tuned up my kit!
Cleared up some stuff
Great dinner
Managed to practice a little
Was really difficult to play 30-10bpm!
Cleared up some things
Woke up, slept well with fresh sheets
Trouble preparing material for cell
Good breakfast
Wore my new clothes! Really nice!
Especially my new converse and jeans, with my new shirt then with my orient! Very nice! 🙂
Frogman was a good movie, liked that they put Wei Liang up front now!
Good acting
Had laksa from gramps! Loved it!
Steamboat for dinner was good!
Responded to my internship application! Can’t wait!
Woke up really tired
Heard that we are going to JB!
Went to Little India
Decided to take a cab instead of 170
Went to Woodlands Checkpoint! Quite cool ah! Never try before!
Roti Boy was delicious!
Had a good lunch!
Great movie! Enjoyed myself!
Ate Secret Recipe for dinner! Was good! 🙂
Got back home early
Managed to write a little
Watched ABTM2 on TV
Woke up well today
Roti Boy was good!
The soup stock tokyo was so so
Watched King of Mahjong, was so lame
Practiced, my left hand start single stroke is better now
Had a good dinner
Got up
Sis went to Grace with us
We took cab to church
Managed to chat and have some time with Royce and Jacob!
Talked to Bob, he is worried over his Chinese
Talked to Justin, he has work to do
Worship was good
Had a chat with Denise
Talked to Kennaf and got prayer
Chatted with Matthew and Ben
Got home
Had a short nap
Got vouchers from Aunt
Slept even more!
Met up with JED! Council 2014
Great dinner
Enjoyed sharing
Really enjoyed myself with them! 🙂
Confirmed filming with Tiff
Nice pohpiah at home!

=198= Words of Melancholy: Statue

My story happened years ago back when I was still studying in Australia. Back in Australia, my room mate and I often cycle after school. We would cycle almost everyday, always going through the same route across the street, through the park, turn right until we see an antique shop then turn right again until we reach back at our apartment.

One afternoon after school, I wanted to go for a ride, but my room mate was busy with her assignments. So I simply decided to go down myself. So I went across the street and into the park. Halfway in the park, a sharp pain can upon my right thigh. It wasn’t very bad, but to be wise I came down from my bike and started to push my bike instead. While walking my usual route, I saw this dark path on the left. I have never been there before so I decided to explore a little. The path was beautiful, full of lush flowers and tall trees. I sat down on the bench to rest my legs and my thigh. I noticed this peculiar statue opposite me. It was a statue of a pregnant lady.

The statue was bronze in colour. It had a base, like those that normally had descriptions of the character there, except this statue did not have it. On top of the base was the lady. The lady had her right hand on her belly, almost like she was rubbing her pregnant belly. Her left hand on the base of the statue supporting her weight. I do not know why, but I felt warm inside after seeing the the pregnant lady. After staying there for about 15 minutes, I got on my bike and left.

The next day I woke up still feeling a little pain on my thighs. While walking to school, as it was still some time to my first lesson, I decided to make a short detour to the statue. Once again the beautiful walkway then to the bench. However, today the statue did not looked anything like yesterday. The statue today was of that lady holding a baby. That crept me out totally so I tried to run away. However, as I tried to run away, I tripped on something, fell flat down and I blanked out.

When I opened my eyes, I am not at that nice park walkway, I was in like some forest. Where am I? How in the world did get here? I wandered for around for a while, but could not find a way around at all. After about an hour, I gave up and sat where I was. It was getting dark and I am really scared. Then I saw a figure.

It was a lady.

She looked so lost like me so I called out to her and asked her to sit down with me. She sat down and we began to chat. It was dark so I really could not make out how she looked like. Her voice was sweet and had a rich Australian accent; it almost sounded like she was royalty. I thought that her silhouette looked a little similar to the statue, but since it was dark and scary and I only have her beside me, I pushed that thought to the back of my head. Her name is Valerie and she was around the forest picking up berries but she got lost. She shared that she had just gave birth to her child a month ago. I was almost sure that she was the lady in statue, but I did not inquire more, mainly because I was afraid that she was really a ghost. We both agreed to sleep on the grass patches and wait for the morning to find our way out.

When I woke up, I was back in the park. What happened? Did I hallucinate? I stood up and turned around to face the statue. This time the statue was different again. It showed a lady lying down on her own. The statue was definitely Valerie. It had her hairstyle. The silhouette is really like her. I thought about it, the statue seemed to portray Valerie’s life. So the first day I saw, I saw her pregnant. The second day she had given birth and was holding the baby. The third day was portraying her being in the forest lying down after we decided to sleep through the night.

I went and did my research, apparently on the park. Valerie’s full name was Valerie Jones. Her husband’s name was William Jones, a sculptor. He made the statue in the park, the photo of Valerie was simply her standing up straight. To make things even more interesting, many people like me claimed to have seen the statue in a different structure from the photo. However, none claimed that they actually talked to her. Did I really just went back in time and actually talked to Valerie?

The next day, when I went to see the statue again, the statue looked like what the statue in the photo; simply her standing upright. It was a strange experience to have actually seen her and talked to her. Just before I turned away and left I noticed a scar at her right thigh; like a bite of some sort. The same spot that my right thigh was hurting.

The subsequent two years when I visit the statue I never saw it in a different structure again. I would often wonder if my experience was just a dream or hallucination, or did it really happen?

I do not think much about this incident anymore, but whenever my right thigh acts up and have a sharp pain. I would think about Valerie. I thought about what that scar or bite might be. Maybe after I slept and came back to the present, she might have gotten bitten by a snake and passed away. Maybe she was born with it. Maybe it was a fault that the husband made on the statue. This matter puzzled me for years. Maybe when I visit Australia again and visit that path in the park, I will see something different in that statue again.

~

This was the story that I posted and I was so weird to post it on the JED! Group because this is the kinda thing that I only do here; where very few people are reading. So when I brought it to the bigger audience, it was just weird. To make that worse, after writing this story, I freaked myself out and had to read 1 John 4:4 to bring myself peace and be assured.

Then I dreamt about a horrible dream.

I dreamt that my dad came to me and told me that some acronym, can’t remember the actual one, like RC or something, is real and it is very scary. Then he told me that I need to take note and not follow in his footsteps.

So we had dinner then he asked me to get him a drink. Before I got back, he went out o the door. I asked him to come back but he did not. He turned right, covered by the wall. Then two delivery men came and I asked them if they had seen my dad, but they told me that they did not.

It reeked of judgement day and the burning of hell. It was a horrible dream. Lord, please give me a better one tonight? Lord, please secure my dad’s salvation.
Thank you Lord
-Amen-

-Kelvin-

=197= Words of Joy: Thankful

Dear Lord, I came out of this period of time and i came out thankful. I am glad. Lord, this year hasn’t been smooth sailing at all, but i am thankful for the people that you have put in my life. Lord, many of them do not know, but many of them bring me much joy, more than they know!

I am thankful that my relationships are not just ankle deep. Lord, my relationships with people are slowly having depth and as a Sang, I am glad. A problem that i face being who i am is that i kept making relationships that are ankle deep. I now see many of my interactions with people are superficial. I seem like i have a lot of friends, but really, i don’t. I keep making relationships i like to call, “friendly acquaintances”. You guys know each other but not very well. You guys will be able to hang out, but nothing more. I need more. Knee deep. All the way up to my neck and then over my head. Find out more in people’s lives. Love them.

I am chronically late. It is depressing. I used to be someone that really hates being late. However, recently, i do not know why, i kept being late. Perhaps i stopped valuing people’s time and my own. I find value in not knowing everything and being such an ass on time because i find that it will really show bad character and eventually being passive aggressive. However, that should not be the reason i am always late. Perhaps, i am constant squeezing too much into the small time frame! Haha, no matter how late it is, there is always time for another video. I guess, the first step in this refinement is to stop wasting my own time? Perhaps stoping using computer at night and give the time to the Lord. Lord, refine me, allow me to value people’s time more.

I am really a cow(or a whale for that matter, if you are reading! HAHA) for writing that stupid “horror” story and posted it on the JED! group. Well, the statue thing was interesting! So instead of just posting an idea, i wrote a whole story. Felt so stupid for posting it there. -sigh- Then when they replied, i did not reply anything because if i say anything it will just sound arrogant and proud and bringing attention to myself. Why the crap did i do that? Oh well, the things that you do and you regret afterwards and whenever you think of it, you cringe. I hate those moments, Lord, please help me get over these moments.

This post is slowing becoming like a Words of Melancholy post, but oh well, i will post what i started off with! 🙂

However, i am still thankful, this CNY was a great time spent with family. I am glad. It’s nice! To be so blessed its good!

-Kelvin-

=196= Words of Melancholy: Good

No! No, it will not be two thanksgiving of the week consecutively! So yeah gonna rant now! So bear with me! 🙂

Firstly, my spiritual life feels empty. Most probably it is because the lack of QT recently. It’s like just empty. No fire burning. Just weak. Lord, will you please give me flame? Give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning, burning, burning. Give me oil in my lamp I pray.

Next, my left shoulder is killing me… 😦 there was a sharp pain after I practiced yesterday, thought nothing of it. Then today after carrying a sling bag on my left shoulder, it acted up again. Wah, really pain. Hopefully it is nothing serious!

Watched two movies over the past two days! Frogman and Dragon Blade. I enjoyed both very much! Let me start with Frogman!

I enjoyed that they decided to give Lobang more depth and character development this time. Wei Liang is one of the few actors in ABTM that can really act. Totally loved his character! I liked how they made him break the rules for his family. When a man is pushed to his breaking point and have no choice, he would by all means do what he needs to do no matter how difficult and how tough it is. Then, when he was in such a dilemma on whether or not to call the police, that was good. I am glad that they added that part in. Sometimes there will be times where we need to do the right thing—something that is better for the person —and not what the person wants. The drug addict of a mother he had almost killed his sister over money for drugs. He had to choose between the right thing to do and what his mother wanted. When he did it, his mom even scolded him being unfilial. It is a sad truth, but his mother needed to get her act together and that was the right thing to do! I liked that he had his buddy by his side advising him and encouraging him. There is really nothing more depressing than being alone in such a situation. However, his explanation for what he did was just lame. Next, I found Ken’s character development in this movie weak. Well, it is understandable that it is difficult to squeeze what they did in two movies into one. Ken once again went through the “rebel” phase(the whole girlfriend dump him because he was in NS drama) then the “good” phase. Then Lobang actually encouraging him to continue the course. It was just stupid that the new boyfriend was just the cousin… Lame… But overall I think they did a good job recreating his character over the shorter time span. I quite liked that Haley or Jayley Woo was his girlfriend. Way prettier than the previous girl! Aloysius’ character was so annoying. Once again he was the Wayang King. Once again he was the one being bullied, but at a higher intensity. He was definitely cooler though! After the I learned martial arts since young scene. Well it was good. Hei Long was the new character. Hmm, ok luhh… I hate that they never revealed much about his relationship with his mum and dad. Totally expected the change/turn of his character. Really liked when all and sat down and told him that everyone has family problems. The settled thing was cool as well. It was like “suck it up, you have more to do”. Sounds really insensitive luhh, but that is how a man is supposed to be. I recalled one of my favourite quotes from FMA, “why are you crying like girl when you act like a man?” What this movie did well in portraying is the character in the instructors. What the last two movies fall short was giving compassion and heart to the instructors. Tosh had the very likable kind of instructor character. The kind that scolds a ton, but understands when to stop and when to realize that it is important or not. I liked that he ran with Ken when it rained. I remembered what Peter Erskine commented on Whiplash. A conductor needs to give as much love as he gives scoldings for the band to work together. This movie did what Whiplash could not; to give love on top of scoldings. Then No2’s character was splendid! Very funny but still stern enough. Very talented actor, able to do very funny interpretations. His character was human too, a big man that was willing to admit his mistake. Very cool!

The Dragon’s Blade was good! I just watched the problems about action movies on YouTube and this movie performed exceedingly well! Jackie Chan really doesn’t seem as old as he is. He is very good! It is not just about the action; it is the drama behind the action as well. The vulnerability of his abilities was showed multiple times as well. He was almost beaten by a few people and he got shot several times. It was a good movie that has enough drama for character development yet enough action for action seekers. I often think that the best scenes are the scenes when they put what they have learned before the fight/match to use! Like karate kid pushing people out of the ring. Like gameplay when the main character used ballet in football. Well, it is good!

The things I am learning from my course are coming to good use! Tiff and Bro Shavinn wants me to make a video for them. Me knowing how to do editing and stuff like that is really cool! Never thought I will actually learn how to do so many cool things in my course! I hope to learn more in my internship in esplanade!

I want a walnut snare! Walnut is a very dark and warm wood, so having it in a smaller dimension is good. So it really blends and offers more crack and attack. I want a 14 by 4.5 stage walnut snare, with tube lugs, wood hoops, trick multistep throwoff, DW 3 position butt plate, 42 strands Canopus snare wires. With Pantheon giving the $200 off discount now, it really is tempting, but I shall wait first, cymbals first! Well, dreaming of a world where I am interview in drum channel with that Singaporean made snare. Then I buy the Joe Montineri 14 by 3.5 vented pancake brush snare as a side snare. Then using both Paiste Masters and Giant Beat cymbals. Then having a Mapex Saturn V kit, with like black chrome heads and EC Resonant on the toms and the kick having no internal muffling. Upgraded the drums to wood hoops. Been checking some pedals out as well. It is basically a fight between Mapex Falcon pedal, Tama Speed Cobra, Pearl Demon Drive pedal and DW 9000 pedal. I saw an offset pedal which is cool as well! Pearl Demon Drive looks really cool, but some of the reviews are quite bad. The Speed Cobra looks the slickest, but heard that the springs spoils easily. Didn’t really like how the 9000 felt in the sanctuary. I wanted to get the Mapex Falcon because Russ Miller used it before he was endorsed and it had rather good reviews. I liked that it is simple as well, no need for more options if it feels good! Probably can wait for some discount in guitar 77 or get at a discounted price from MDS!

My heart needs to be realigned, Lord, please still my heart. So many idols in my life now. Please refine me Lord!

Thank you Father!

-Kelvin-

=195= Thanksgiving of the Week

Thanksgiving 15/2/2015:
Ran away
Failed horribly…
Had a swim
Did a paper
Practiced drums, was able to play hands down like 80 percent well! 🙂
Good dinner
A lot of concern from leaders and friends about the funeral
Had tea before the exam was less tired
The exam hall was freezing
Managed finish the paper quickly
Had a question that stumbled me a little, but managed to solve it in time!
Good lunch
Had a nice chat with JunYi
Had a nap
Liked the drama played on TV at 5.30
Good dinner
Got a ride to the funeral
Was very glad that my friends came, really managed to ease the awkwardness
Had little but good sleep
The atmosphere was really heavy
Never saw my Dad cry that much
Need to grow up
Gonna be late
Good time with 116
Managed to do some work for the project
985 had just right timing
Had a little chat with Shena
Played hands down 90% decently
Rehearsals was alright
Still need to work on my timing with the metronome
Had a fun chat with Winnie
Had a lift home
Good time listening to different songs in the car
Good fish soup at home
Failed again
Caught up to 103
Good drum lessons
Went to HMV and got a Phillip Phillips CD, it was SOOO good!
Helped an old man find directions
Got home had a little nap
Did some work
Practiced a lot, hands down at 95% decent
Did up a formula sheet for AEA
Went to school early
Bumped into Hui Yi and Shee Kei
Got to study with them
Paper was good, managed to solve the question that I was stuck in
Got a nice time on 74 with Jun Yi, Nok Wan, Kris and Yu Hui
Nice pork floss bread
Nice coffee bread
Dinner was alright
Cell was good
I think Cell is really coming together! Been good!
Got to chat a little with Jun Kang about music!
Good breakfast
Got to equip on time
Good lunch
Service was a little awkward
Worship was good though
Missed the stop start
But the rumble was good
Feeling a little empty now
Managed to solder for Leb and “fixed” the lights? Fingers crossed for tmr!
It’s like God is using the knowledge I got from my course to serve the church, like when Tiff asked me to film the video!
945 came in time
Missed the MRT but was good, the next one was empty and lots of seats
Managed to sit at my favourite seat on the bus
Got to go out with my family to buy CNY goodies! Was good! 🙂
Cell was a little messy
The service was good! I managed to have some fun with Footsteps!
I think Sis Rach and Ga got a little annoyed at how loud we were
Worship was alright! Managed to do the stop start!
Bro Shavinn complimented my shoes!
Prayed for Justin and Aaron!
Good lunch with Daniel and Justin!
Had such a great nap!
Good dinner! Yu Sheng was good
Haha really want a walnut snare now!

=194= Melancholic Reflections: Albums

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Wah the Phillip Phillips Album I just bought on Thurs is SOOO good! This is restoring the faith I have in albums that all songs are good!

What got me collecting albums were a few things. First of all, I never really downloaded music when I was young. My sister did and she had like over a thousand songs! But I never really got how you can have thousands of songs to only listen to a few. So when pastor said that he got rid of all his downloaded music in his computer, it encouraged me to not download even more. Second, I have a good experience with albums. The first album I ever purchased was the Michael Bublé’s Christmas album! I remember how when I was playing it on my mum’s laptop on repeat. It was so good! Then I actually viewed albums as good gifts. I realised that people that download music would not mind albums as well! It made albums a very good gift! It’s $20+ legit price for a present and everyone likes it! 🙂 so I bought Esther the Switchfoot album and Charis the MB Christmas album. Seeing how much they liked it encouraged me to buy albums. Then I got a Lifehouse album, No Name Face, I recall how much I loved the arrangements and the catchy music that Jason Wade sang! So over the years, after I got my ATM card and my allowance in my account every week, it became easier to save and spend on what I want. At first, I would buy both drum sticks and albums so I had to moderate my spending. However when Leb they all pool money to buy me a brick of sticks Christmas 2 years ago, that freed me to buy more albums! In fact, that(a brick of sticks) was a very good present! I am still using the brick! I think a brick could last me a good two years! Haha I sure wouldn’t mind another brick this year! Combine birthday and Christmas present I also would not mind! It feels good to be sponsored with drumsticks!

Okay back to the topic of albums! So yeah with the good impression of albums, I dived myself into the world of CDs and got myself a ton of CDs! Haha ask me about it in person! I will show you my very cool photo of my album collection! I would say that I bought all of them, but there are some CDs that I buy just to try something different or give that particular band a chance! It’s like I never even heard of them until I got to HMV and I just have faith and buy! So far very few passed the test, the 5SOS album was alright. The Fray passed, I quite like their album! Jason Mraz’s “Yes” passed with flying colours! Mcfly’s “Memory Lane” passed very well as well. However, I once bought a female chinese album just to try more Mandapop, but was disappointed. 五月天 is still the king! So I would be crazy to post this without recommending some albums of mine!

So here goes!
1. Dashboard Confessional’s “A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar”
This is a must have album for any rock/punk/emo/acoustic lover! Chris(the singer) writes amazing songs and his voice is to die for! It is extremely well arranged and written! All of their songs there are good! Even though it’s $28.90, I felt that it is worth every penny of the $28.90 I paid for!

2. 五月天 ‘s 步步
Ok 五月天 is the band when it comes to Mandapop! I can personally vouch for their quality in any album! I have yet to find an album that I was disappointed with! Their lyrics are skillful. Their music arrangements are so clever. Their band is so tight! They play from dance music to ballads and they are GOOD. I chose 步步 just because it has most of their nice songs and for a good price too! It’s like 30 songs for like 21+ it’s a good price!

3. Michael Bublé’s Christmas Album
This was my first album and I was a good one! Michael Buble is my favourite singer! No one can sing anything as smooth as he can. No one can sing like Michael Buble. His control over his voice is not something people have these days! Not just that, he is a fantastic entertainer! He knows how to engage the crowd! He is one of the few singers that still performs with a big band! With brass instruments and all. He records most of his albums live too, just to show you how amazing he is! If you buy his Christmas album, there are more bonus tracks now than when I first got it! It’s a good price too! It’s my only Christmas album and frankly, I don’t need another one! Michael Bublé’s other albums are great too! I think if you buy To Be Loved now in HMV, you can get the Asia tour edition for like 21 bucks with bonus tracks! I still want the caught in the act album… If only if it wasn’t 28.90… :/

4. John Mayer’s “Where the Light Is”
This is the album when John Mayer is at his peak! Honestly, I prefer some of the studio versions compared to some of the songs here, but John Mayer is as good here. This was the album that featured him performing only with an acoustic guitar and a mic! Neon is by far one of the most sick performances I have ever saw on YouTube. In your atmosphere is very nice as well! It’s funny how he sang about not going LA in LA. The other must have album of his, is “Room for Squares”. This album has the best mixing I have ever heard! There is so much going on, yet you can hear every single minor detail. Every fill in. Every instrument with clarity and yet not messy and chaotic at all. It was very fun to listen “Your Body is a Wonderland” and hear all the little “I’m never speaking up again, I’ll use my hands” and little drum fills here and there. Very nice!

5. Switchfoot’s “Oh Gravity”
This is the album that has “Awakening”! This album is good! I remembered this was my go-to album whenever I have no idea what to listen to. I think this album shows Switchfoot in the best way possible! Not to say that the other albums are bad, but the one that really shows Switchfoot as what is it is, is this album!

6. Lifehouse’s “No Name Face”
This was my first Lifehouse album and personally my favourite, but I haven’t heard “Lifehouse”, supposed to be their best album from Elliot and Josh Lui’s opinion. However, no one can refute that No Name Face was good! It really is! Very nice! They are simple yet nice!

7. McFly’s Memory Lane compilation album
I don’t have a lot of mcfly’s albums, but they are good! Like if I put my IPod on shuffle and they turn up, I will enjoy myself! If I jammed to their songs on drums, I will find very fun stuff to play!

8. Phillip Phillips’ “The World From the Side of the Moon”
It is such a beautiful album. It has songs that never intrigued me so much since I discovered Dashboard and 五月天! Was so glad I bought it and gave him a chance! I guess the American Idol winner will not be all that bad! He is simply stunning. The album tracks all have the same theme and is very cohesive! The lyrics and writing is just so good! Wished I could have bought his other album too! He seems like someone I can follow very closely to!

9. Jesus Culture Live in New York
This was the album I bought the day I went to watch them live! Wah, Jesus Culture is very nice! They were like my Dashboard and 五月天 of Christian music! They are very good in dynamics and spirit led kind of moments! Something I really have to learn! When you put Kim Walker, Chris Quilala and Martin Smith together you know you will stumble upon gold! Very good!

10. That Girl in Pinafore Soundtrack
Ok, people that know that I like this movie don’t laugh! Haha! Well, I don’t really favour the horrible acting! However, I do enjoy how the director put in effort to link Singaporean songs that he grew up with, with the storyline! A big part of why I like this movie is because of the music! I am proud of Singaporean music! Even though chinese, I can bet that you will know some of the songs in the movie! It really is an album I actually enjoyed! Very proud to be Singaporean! 🙂

Albums are great! It is a great collection to have! 🙂
-Kelvin-

=193= Melancholic Reflections: Funeral

Well, this is a bit overdue but yeah here goes.

On Saturday, during parents circle, I received a phone call from my dad that my grandmother passed away. She fell down in her house and just before she reached the hospital, she passed away. My dad also told me that the funeral will only happen on Sun because the body needed to be analyzed by the hospital. Therefore, I continued with what I needed to do in parents circle. It seemed a bit insensitive and emotionless, but why can’t one perform even under such circumstances? Gain composure and continue with what you needed to do. Well, the other fact is that, my grandmother wasn’t very close to me. The last time I saw her was like last year’s CNY. In fact I do not know her well at all. So when this happened I just felt a bit sad and that is all. I wasn’t grieving over her death; I just felt a bit of “by proxy” feelings through my dad. I found out later on that my grandmother passed away from a heart attack.

My brain is a funny thing. It has trouble remembering stuff like which number is my uncles/aunties. Like I know that he/she is my uncle/auntie, but I dunno who is younger or older. So when like I see them I often forget the title I need to greet them with. Therefore, whenever it is CNY or this kind of thing, it is always awkward. To make it even worse, this time round, I found out that my uncle got married. Then, in the subsequent days, I kept seeing new faces that I never seen before. Maybe it is because I do not spend much time with them that caused this.

The next thing is this, I really do think that there should be more insight on how a Christian should react in a non-Christian funeral. What can we do. What we cannot do. What do we say. How we should phrase our sentences. I am just lost whenever there is a ritual or a ceremony. I have no idea what I I should do whenever the person says, “pai, zai pai, sa pai(bow, bow again, third bow)”I have no idea what I should be doing when the monk starts chanting. Oh on the side note, I found it quite interesting, I just wonder what happens if the monk goes out of tune or zao xia. It’s quite cool to see them play percussion. At the back of my head, I was like trying I figure out the parts they were playing!

With this funeral happening, I started to think about a few things. I started to ask how is one person judged? I mean we always say that after we sin, we must repent, but I am thinking of my grandmother. She is 80 years old, she has probably no physical strength to do anything wicked. Probably have little opportunities to do bad. Perhaps just a little coarse in her words but that is it. So after retirement, she was basically sitting around. How would she sin? I mean, at that age, there is not much you can do, you no longer have parents to honor. Lying? Hating someone and killing them with your hearts? Worshipping Idols? Coveting what others have? I have no idea. What if one was in Coma for 7 years before dying? Would those 7 years be included in judgement? With your brain unconscious and no one can reach out to you. Judgement is such a scary thing and yet I am still numb. I would find that judgement just based on my youth or just based on my present would be scary. Lord, I really need your grace and salvation.

I noticed that my grandmother was quite popular. It was weird. I never knew that she had so many relatives and friends. If a person’s greatness is based on how many people she have come to her funeral, my grandmother will be pretty great. I often wonder how would my funeral be like if I die now? Will many of my friends come? Will they cry? Will thy even know? I mean my mum and dad isn’t very intergraded in church. Will my death be spread to the the youths? How will people remember me? Funny? Loving? Irritating? Annoying? Though I am trying my best to be the best person I can be, I really do not know what are people’s impressions of me.

Talking about the church, it was an interesting journey. When I first went to the wake on Sunday and had to go through all the weird rituals, I really do not know what I should do. Should I tell someone? Should I not? I really do not know. It was something personal and if you asked me face to face where I am going, I will not lie, I will tell you that I am going to my grandmother’s funeral. I did not want to blow it up because I really do not want it to be weird when they attend the wake and some weird rituals happens. I did not attend the wake on Monday because I have exams the next day. However, with so much happening, I really do need prayer, so I asked two people for prayer, Kennaf and PJ. Then I also asked Tat Wai to pray for me after all, he prayed over my family before. I asked for prayer over my family. Then all of a sudden it blew up. EnMing texted me. Ga texted me. Then the subsequent days, a few other people texted me as well, Bro Shavinn, Sis Grace, Bro Choo, Sis Sam, Sis Choo and Elsa. It was nice. Then on Tuesday, EnMing, Zheng Fen, Kennaf, Bro Choo and Joel Ng came! Thank God they came! Oh, Pastor Calvin and Sister Charis came as well! I was really awkward because they had some ceremony that the monks needed to chant all the way until 10pm with two breaks in between. With the senior pastor visit, my Dad exempted us from the ceremony so we can host him. Then with my friends there I could kinda get away with it. I was glad, it made things WAY less awkward.

Finally, when it came to the last day, it was a very heavy atmosphere. The undertaker made the five sons to put their hands on the van(with the coffin) as it drives away. I do not understand the significance, but after this, the atmosphere got really heavy. When it came to the actual cremation, gosh, I never saw my dad cry that much before. My dad is always very composed. Through the funeral I see him doing quite alright. However when it came to the cremation, my dad broke. I see him slobbering and saying “bye bye” to his mother. After all, my grandfather passed away when my dad was very young, so my grandmother took care of my dad all by herself. To have someone that close be cremated isn’t something that is easy to watch at all. We comforted him and I felt his pain.

After that, it was almost like a reminder that my grandmother on my mother’s side will one day pass away as well. Lord, my grandmother is an amazing women always cooking for me and my uncle’s family! Please redeem her Lord! Bring her salvation! Father, let me be serious about my spiritual walk.

After all of that and we returned to Yishun, I found out the ugly side of a funeral. One of my aunts, asked for the ring that my grandmother died with, claiming that her daughter wants it. To make it worse, it was during the wake before the cremation. It was such an improper thing to do. Come on, do not do that!

Funerals are really expensive as well. I just found out that the vegetarian food on each table cost $50 each. That hiring the undertaker would be 3-5k and the monks chanting cost 1-2k total up everything, that funeral alone cost close to 20k. It really is sad.

Well if I die now, I want my funeral to be something cheerful and not sad
1. I want to have a worship team in my funeral, like really full band worship! Singing praise and worship songs to the Lord! Preferably be Leb, cause if I can hear his drums when I am dead! That will very nice!
2. I want people of different backgrounds to gather into tables and share about their lives with each other. Have probably a good talker host them in each table(like a cell leader)
3. Somehow or another I want to use my death for the Lord—this was something I prayed after I saw the five sons pushing the van. Don’t point the glory to me, point it to God.
4. I will probably write something for the day itself something to cheer people up? Like a speech!
5. Have the pastor preach not on the afterlife but on God’s grace and mercy. Sure the family needs to be comforted, let the people there that came to visit do their job. Let the pastor bring good news to the lost.

If I die now, let me tell you guys something.

I tried doing my best in everything. In loving people. In giving my time to people. In studies. In supporting someone. In being a good drummer. In being a good cell leader. In leading a righteous life. In being a good person that one can rely on. However, I realised that I still fall short. I can try my best and am still not good enough. So I rely on God. In our culture of relying on oneself, it may sound very lazy, but it is the only way I can be good. That is to have a perfect example to follow. I am very thankful for you in my life. Trust me on that. Even if you have never met me when I was alive before, I give thanks because you are comforting my family that is so dear to me. Well, trust me on this, whether you are christian or not, you are loved. You are worth something. May you find a love that will satisfy you, for I have found and I give thanks. Thank you.

Haha, but Ya, I doubt I am going to die any time soon! 🙂 sure! I would probably write something more personal and to different individuals when I have the time, but for now, this general paragraph will do! 🙂

Thank you Lord for this time. It has been a pleasure.

-Kelvin-

=192= Thanksgiving of the Week

Thanksgiving 8/2/2015:
Got up 43M
Got up the MRT
Missed 66
But 171 overtook 66
Managed to finish MSEM project!
MDA theory test was difficult, but less difficult than the last one!
Practical test was good! Finished!
Managed to do some shooting for Project 2!
Had a nice time traveling
Good time of practice!
Woke up early
Walked away before I got tempted
Watch Kurosagi the movie, preferred the drama series
Reached school late, but classmates are still in class
Managed to film the scenes, but a little less for 3-5 minutes
Enjoyed ride with JunYi back home
Good dinner
Practiced a little on the drum pad
Studied AEA a little
Had an alright rest
Had a few dreams
Saw like two very nice birds while walking to the bus stop
Caught up to 116
Got a seat as well
Kinda got to school on time
Bumped into Dinah
Managed to do up some green screen work
Scored 100 for AEA practical
Managed to revise a bit on DEP
Had a fun chat while revising
Had a wonderful time of worship in J333
Met Shawn Ang and Kean Lee interesting people
Was really affected by someone’s response just now
But all good, we are alright now!
Rested well
Walked away from temptation
Ran for 109, but missed it
Caught 156 though
Bumped into Shee Kei on the bus
Had a nice chat with her
Managed to do a little MDA and then revised on DEP
Well, DEP was tough, but I tried my best, I am satisfied.
Drum lessons was good, managed to record 1 solo and practice the other solos
Bought popiah and Rojak back home
Managed to practice, my left hand getting looser and my speed is getting faster
My eyes felt better after eye wash
Perfect time with 109
Perfect time with MRT
Had a good test just now
Received cookies from Dinah! Was really good! 🙂
Had a good nap
Rested well
Woke up late for Parents’ circle but Mum took cab!
Received hard news.
Was able to talk to Jacob’s and Joseph’s parents
Was good receiving prayer from them
Had a small chat with Shena
Had a little chat with Carol and Renee, really admire their friendship
Went to IMM with Mum and got a new pair of shoes, jeans and shirt!
Managed to finish assignment 5
Got to church late
Had a fun time with kids again! The guys are slowly integrating in! Some of them are already playing!
Had a nice first time serving communion
Was so tired in service
Had a curry puff before rushing
Reached to see my grandma before she was in the coffin
It really does not look like her in the coffin, perhaps I haven’t been spending enough time with her
Got home
Had a nap
Good dinner
Took cab back there
Got some revision done
Took cab back
Pantheon Percussion was very nice in educating me again
Really want a 14×4.5 snare drum