=262= Melancholic Reflections: Retreat Day 1

Well, before I go into things, someone found my blog on Monday via Facebook! My stats showed 19 views by one person. WHO IS STALKING ME?! Hahaha! Thanks for reading! πŸ™‚

Well, the first night was a wonderful night already. Pastor Benny Ho is really amazing! His sermons are easy to understand and the way he preaches was just WOW!

Lesson on the word HABIt. The word HABIt, you take away the ‘H’ you still got A BIt. You take the ‘A’ you still got BIt. You take away the ‘B’ you still got it. We try to crucify the ‘I’ but we couldn’t do it; we need to look to the cross(the ‘t’) then the ‘I’ will exit.

Well, I wanted a refreshment. I wanted fresh oil from the Lord. So I went up. As soon as I went up. A bunch of guys came and laid they hands on me. Lord, I give thanks. I am VERY thankful for these brothers that stands by me.

“Where were you, Lord? Where were you when I needed you the most?” Was what I was praying to the Lord for. Well, there was still some bitterness in my heart that I did not know about. The Lord did a release and told me that He was always with me.

However, I am not done. I am not satisfied with that. “I had enough of me serving with what is left. I had enough of going out to serve without a stronger encounter with You.” “I had enough of losing battles, you give me victory now!” I wanted something more. Something bigger. I wanted to encounter the Lord in a more definite and tangible manner. I want to hear and receive a word.

The Lord brought to mind the time of Phillip Mantofa. When he told us to come and receive. “Come, Receive!” Was what the Lord said to me. So I dragged myself to the front. When I stood at the front, it was awkward. I had no idea what to do there I had no idea what to do. I just spoke to the Lord and my mouth started to move more vigorously than it ever had. I spoke in tongues in a way that I never had. Perhaps the Spirit was praying for me so vigorously? However, God’s presence was there and I was satisfied.

Lord, please stay with me. Allow me to continue to listen to your word and await something amazing to happen in this retreat.

Man… Now I really feel like going to Pastor’s Benny’s sermons… 😦 He really is a man of depth and spirituality!

Oh well, but I believe Pastor Brian will do well too! πŸ™‚


=261= Gear Talk: Bettis Cymbals

Alright I need to get all these gear imagination out of my head!

First of all, those that has followed me for a while would know that currently the cymbals I want are Istanbul Agop Sultan Cymbals!

14 inch Sultan Hats, 17 inch Sultan crash, 20 inch Sultan Jazz Ride, 10 inch Sultan Splash and maybe either a 18 inch Sultan China or a 18 inch Xist Ion crash.

Recently, I thought about vintage drums and I realised that I want a Steambent Birch drum set with wood hoops! Because Birch is light, it is very practical!

While thinking about vintage drums, I thought about Vintage Zildjian cymbals. Like old Ludwig/Sligerland/Rogers drums, people are collecting the old Zildjian cymbals as well. As a result, I did a bit of research on the the old cymbals. Apparently last time, Zildjian and K Zildjian were two different companies, but they merged. Then there are differences in the cymbals then and today because of two things. One, The Ringo Effect. When the Beatles took the world by the storm, people saw that Ringo played Zildjian and they wanted to play Zildjian. The company that hand made their cymbals could not keep up with the demand. Hence, they started using machines to quicken the production process. All the cymbals that were made were slowly lost. Then two, The Great Cymbal Holocaust. During the 1960s and 1970s, all the keyboardists and guitarist started to go into amplified music. Hence, Drummers had to hit louder! The thin cymbals of their day could not take the torture and cracked often. As a result, the company started to make their cymbals heavier and thicker.

I was thinking of like geting the set of Sultans then get a set of vintage Zildjian Istanbul Ks. However, they are REALLY expensive. A good ride will cost like $1000 at least. A GREAT ride will cost like $2000-$3000. It is not very practical.

The website I was checking out was actually a site a cymbal smith made. He was trying to be a cymbal smith when he realised that if he could get hands on some vintage cymbals it would accelerate the improvement of his skills. He made exquisite cymbals! Though his cymbals aren’t exactly old and vintage, but those cymbals look and sound really good!  

Wow! Just so beautiful! πŸ™‚ these are strong edge hi-hats! They are thin from the bell down to the bow but then the edge is left alone. This means that you can get a thin cymbal but with a very crisp foot hi-hat sound! Structure wise, it is very practical! For the edge is where you will hit it most of the time, so it will help with durability. However, I think it might keyhole at the hole because of the differences in weight and velocity of me hitting the cymbals. I was thinking of getting a full set of cymbals that are like strong edge! So I can get light but strong cymbals! πŸ™‚


Just look at how beautiful that cymbal is! It wobbles and it sounds so good! πŸ˜€

Then I also discover Spizzichino cymbals. Roberto Spizzichino is considered to be the greatest cymbal smith and his cymbals are revered by Jazz players! I found one extremely beautiful Spizzichino cymbal! 

This is so incredible! So sensitive and that sizzle tone! WOW! Hope that if I ever get the money that Matt Bettis will be able to make something similar to it!

Oh well just needed to rant somewhere about these cymbals because there was so much information I gathered over the past like four days! So yeah! Amazing!


=260= Thanksgiving of the Week

Thanksgiving 14/6/2015:Woke up early because of body clock



But did not go all the way

Went for a run

Fell halfway

Got up and completed my run

Well 12.10! Not bad a timing for someone who fell!

Not to mention, I give thanks that even though I fell, there were minor and very minor injuries!

Went out and bought muah Chee for grandma!

Music is such an amazing thing!

Got to my grandma’s

Played with my cousins!

Got home

Did a bit of VP

Ate Yong Tau Foo

Went to church

On the way, I thought of a chorus melody! πŸ™‚

Mindez said it was nice too! πŸ™‚

Same chords

Got to church

Practiced a bit in Chapel

Got to play the pantheon black beauty snare! WOW! So nice! πŸ™‚

42 strand snare wires are gonna be something! πŸ™‚

The recording was very cool! πŸ™‚

Though I did not do much, I really do think that I observed a lot about the recording!

It was very cool! πŸ™‚

Got a ride from Amos!

Cool guy!

C liked my post! Oh yes I see it! πŸ™‚ HAHA!

Got home got Yong tau foo! πŸ™‚

Yay supper!

But needed to submit something!

One minute late… 😦 -sigh-

Woke up

Almost failed! Lord, thank you for the strength! Please give me power to run!

Had breakfast

Watched HIMYM again!

Went to Commonwealth to service my watch

Now gotta wait at least 4 weeks till I see my watch… 😦 I will miss it very much… 😦

Bought 3 for $1 curry puff

WOW! Super good! Bought another 3!

The auntie was so nice as to throw in another one! πŸ™‚

Got home

Had a short nap


Good food for dinner

Edited VP

Woke up

Lazed at home until I finally went out at 10


Got to school and managed to do a bit more for MUTS

Helped out with another project

Got to MDS on time

Was fruitful because I practiced!

Got to church

Practiced for like 2 hours! πŸ™‚

J333 was great! πŸ™‚

Met this girl called Hannah, she looked left out so I simply talked to her! Quite cool! πŸ™‚

Got a lift back home from Jun Kang’s parents! πŸ™‚

Got home did up more for VP

Realised that D is not going for retreat… 😦

Caught up to 116

Caught up to the MRT

MRT is quite comfortable! πŸ™‚

Got to class

Learned a bit

Did up a bit more for MUTS

Went down for practical test

Flopped it… 😦

Got home

Could not practice cause Dad at home… :/

Went to grandma’s

Felt really bad cause I have been going to my grandma’s really late… 😦

Went to Jin Leong’s concert

Was nice!

Was super fun to hang out together again! πŸ™‚

Had quite a nice talk with Elaine!

Woke up

Failed again

Lord, please empower me!

Wasted too much time

Took cab to school

-sigh- still late

But no one in class

Had like a one to one session with Mr Loh! πŸ™‚

Printed out the notes

Helped Sheryl and Mavise with the drum parts!

Got myself an Old Chang Kee chicken wing! So nice!

Caught up to 74! Just finished the chicken wing! πŸ™‚

Met mum

Had Swensons for lunch

Unhappy with the amount of sauce… :/

Went to Bishan, had Yami yogurt!

Yami over Llao Llao any day!

Got home

Practiced the left foot tambourine!

Lord, please bless me with wisdom and musical capability to be able to express what I want to during retreat!

Give me the inspiration to play what is nice! πŸ™‚

Got to grandma’s

Good food!

Good soup! πŸ™‚

Came back

Watched 118! Love the show! Would wanna buy it when it comes out in DVD the future, but I think it is gonna be expensive… 😦

Thought about an activity with the cell! πŸ™‚

Decided to go with like the mid year review instead! πŸ™‚

Sis ZF wanted to do like an outreach!

Rested well

Got up

Had kueh for breakfast! πŸ™‚

Went to customs


Waited for like two hours to get through… -sigh-

Got through

Went to Ya Wang Restoran

Was good!

Went and had crepe cake, was good too! πŸ™‚

Got back

Got myself a shirt, a pair of shorts and a pair of pants! πŸ™‚

Had Tang Shifu! 

Was alright but meh…

Had Roti Boy! πŸ™‚

Got back

Thank God it wasn’t four times as bad as in the afternoon!

Interesting conversation with the cab driver! πŸ™‚

Got home


Woke up late

Had the Tuna Bread for breakfast! Was good!

Got to Tiong!

Managed to push Jethro to it! πŸ™‚

Like Cell Breakfast Sia!

Got to do the Outreach

Went around and gave sweets to people!

When I got back, Johann was crying because no one wanted to accept the sweets he was offering

I offered to be by his side until he was able to give out at least one of his sweets

As he was already depressed, the tone he gave while giving the sweets was quite sad.

He was able to finally give an uncle a sweet!

He cheered up! πŸ™‚

We got back!

Haha was a bit drenched but was quite nice! πŸ™‚

Van and Claire visited! πŸ™‚ sight for sore eyes! πŸ™‚ Visit MORE! Haha!

Worship was nice, but I felt as though some people were distracted!

Zackeus came! πŸ™‚

Apparently he is coming for retreat! YAY!

Lord, please give him fire and desire to know you more!

Well, everyone went home… 😦 oh well time to go home

Went to Kovan

Had nice food!

Sam sent me a message! Was really quite encouraging and edifying! Thanks Sam!

Got home

Went for a swim!

HAHA! It was so distracting with the Pull buoy! But so much fun! Like I tried to keep my balance with it on my feet! Like hover board Sia! πŸ˜€

Got home


Went to Hougang 1 to deliver Mum’s wallet

Got home slept again! Haha! I need more!

Got up

Ate dinner! Nice Yong Tau Foo!

Watched SEA Games Bowling haha! Nice! 256 leh! Zai!

Really want vintage Istanbul k cymbals Sia… Looks so good! But the ones in good condition confirm VERY expensive!

The Spizzichino extra thin cymbal is SOOO nice! πŸ˜€

Lord, I can’t wait for Retreat!

Father, will you please give me the wisdom to answer the questions that I need to?

Lord, help me to spend my time well! Allow me to be able to study and worship and prepare for sets well! Thank you Lord!

=259= Words of Joy & Melancholy: SSF

SSF or Secondary School Friends! Haha! It is increasingly difficult to come up with like new post titles, so yeah! A Β bit of creativity there! πŸ˜› This is a special post cause it has both Joy and Melancholy, so yeah!

Oh well, today i went to NYP for Jin Leong’s concert. It was interesting. For one it reminded me the last time i went for his concert two years ago. That time it wasn’t in the big room. Oh wait, let me side track a bit please! The rooms in NYP are AMAZING. Like WOW! The acoustics in the place were so good that the conductor did not need a mic to engage with the audience! The instruments were all very clear even without mic-ing! Just really nice! People really should pay more attention to acoustics! Let’s go back to it!

The last time i went for his concert, I went with C & C. Well, I remembered a lot of memories and it stung again. I remembered listening to the pieces and trying to impress her with my hearing saying that someone is off. I remembered listening to one piece and telling her that it sounded like carnival music, “Get your free popcorn here!” I remembered afterwards we went to Macs at Hougang 1 and had supper. I remembered listening in close to their conversation and then remembering her english teacher’s name. I remembered teasing her that I will get her ants for her birthday. It honestly stung.

Well, this time around, I went with Elaine and Yun Yu. It was great. Haha, we were extremely noisy and we just miss each other’s company. On our way home, I asked Elaine if she was still in contact with anyone from Bowen. She told me not really that the Mac Jack clique is the only group of friends that she still keep in contact. That is really sad, because we haven’t been meeting very much. I could finally mention C’s name without it being too obvious. Elaine told me that she met her one day, greeted C very friendly, but C just responded coldly. Well, when i heard that, I could totally imagine her doing that. Like, she was not responding like that because she hates you or anything, but because it was in her nature. She has those resting bitch face and yeah, they were pretty scary! It honestly slipped my mind that she was like that, but when mentioned, it stood out like a sore thumb. I am really sad that Mac Jack had to come to a place like this because of what happened between us. It may be a bit narcissistic to think that it was because of us, but it was much easier before than now. MUCH easier. I decided to treasure my group of friends after wallowing in self pity for so long, I am still very thankful that i did, but she doesn’t seem to treasure them at all. It really boils down to one question, “How can you throw something like that away so easily?”

I really can’t understand.

I see the wrong in my actions as well. For we were not together officially, I often used Mac Jack as an excuse to see her. “Hang out in groups, so you will not tempt yourself!” was what i used to always say. Now i see it as nothing more than weak advise. Hanging out in groups doesn’t mean you can’t grow closer and tempt yourself. Rather, it gives you a false sense of security as though the group would stop you guys from going too far. Today, on top of my secondary school friends, there were Elaine’s classmates as well! There was an unofficial couple. The whole night, Yun Yu and I were commenting on them being together. Elaine told me that if you asked them, they would say that they are not a couple. That her class used to be very close. The girl had a close female friend in class and that they would do many projects together. However, since the unofficial relationship started, the girl has been requesting for the guy to join the group as well. The guy sounded like a passive aggressive person; hinting the class that he also didn’t want to be in groups of three, but no choice. Oh come on, if you want to group with your girlfriend, just do it lah! Don’t be so annoying as to say so much and mean so little.

In this, I can already see how unhealthy this relationship is. First of all, there is no need to spend so much time together already and still work together. I mean, sure, it may be a great chance to work together and continue to spend time with each other, but, you will still need friends luhh come on. People that do that, inches out many of the friends that they have. Elaine told me that the guys that hang around the guy are angry with him for not spending time with them. At first sight, you might find his friends as petty, but who would not get annoyed at someone that treats friendships like dirt? If they ever do break up, it is not going to be pretty. Both the guy and girl will have few friends left to console them.

Well, I used to see unofficial relationships as sweet. For they are best friends but not yet together! Awww…. But no. Now i see them as dangerous and lazy. Why dangerous, I already explained, it gives them a false sense of security. This in turns makes them go even further. Β Why Lazy? It makes them intimate without committing much to each other. With their words “as friends”, they are going to hurt each other and they are just going to hold it in, because they like each other. If they don’t commit to the title, they don’t have to commit to standards. It is actually permissible for them to do anything! Since they are not in a relationship, they can do whatever they want. If I want to go out with someone else, I can, because I don’t have a girlfriend. This is shown, sadly in one of my favourite comic book characters of all time, Archie Comics. Archie is a guy that likes two girls, Betty and Veronica. For 60+ years in the comics, he hasn’t made a decision who to go steady with. In one of the stories, it pictured Veronica started hanging out with this elderly woman. The elderly woman was then shown to be fighting over an old man with her friend. Veronica imagined her future with her being old, but still fighting with Betty over Archie. Isn’t it a pitiful relationship to be in? Well, it may be more fun to not make a decision on who to go steady with, but it is selfish. Kissing both girls and having relationship with both of them, that is not healthy. However, honestly, that is what makes Archie Comics so nice to read as well. You can do anything you want if you don’t commit. However, do you know that because you are in an unofficial relationship, you are going to hurt the other party if you did that? Well, most people have the sense to not hurt each other, so for that i am thankful.

Well, after writing this, I normally would password protect it, but time has passed for so long already, i reckon that it would matter anymore. Well, people that actually reads my blog are people that don’t know me, people that knows about C or people that I can trust. SO yeah! Just gonna leave it public and give glory to the Lord. I give thanks that after the relationship that i had with C, I grew a lot in the Lord. I grew a ton in self control, i am honestly surprised at my response to someone i was attracted to. Looks like I am getting better at guarding my own heart! Thank You God!

Well, if there was one thing that I can conclude about this post it would be that there are actually things apart from relationships; like family, friends and studies! Please please please please treasure those things as well, for your relationship will not be the only thing sustaining you.


=258= Words of Joy: Give Thanks

Well, I can’t say that life is bad now! In fact I think that right now, I am doing quite fine! πŸ™‚

I am really thankful for company that just makes life more light hearted and with more laughter. I give thanks for my ability to talk to others. I give thanks for it being more controlled and for a greater purpose now.

I give thanks for slight victory over an area. I give thanks for being able to practice drums. I give thanks for my soul being more still. I give thanks for things that are happening! I give thanks for inspiration. I give thanks for delight in what I am doing in school.

Lord, please continue to bless me.

Father, please bring revival to the church. Please bring fire and passion to my cell. Please bring authencity into the ministry! Thank you Lord!



=257= Thanksgiving of the Week

Thanksgiving 7/6/2015:

Failed again…

-sigh- what a bad start to the day… 😦

Lord, please give me strength and courage to run!

Had wanton noodles for breakfast was good!

Went to watch Tomorrowland, was not bad, but too much content squeezed into little time… Would be more entertaining if they developed it even more!

The actor acting the role Athena was SOO good! Kudos to the child actor! πŸ™‚

Had laksa for lunch

Got back

Went for a run!

Managed to get 11.55! Much better timing from the first! πŸ™‚

Got back, napped a bit!

Good dinner

Managed to complete my video! Should we add in the last vending machine voice over sequence?


Woke up slightly early

Ran and caught up to 43

Ran and caught up to the lift

Ran and caught up to the MRT

Got to class early

Jia Jun and I just borrowed the Cam and filmed for like 15 minutes!

Lesson was short

Had lunch

Managed to touch up VP!


Went down to studio

Something happened that totally ruined my mood

Went home

Failed again… 😦

Practiced a bit

Got to grandma’s!

Good food! πŸ™‚

Got home

Prepared for set

Thank God that it took my mind off things and had ministered to me through song!

Woke up slightly late

Got to school on time though!

Lesson was interesting! But a bit long… :/

Drum lessons were good and productive!

Went to Bras Barsah and ordered the watch!

Went to church

Went up to practice!

Was a good time of practice! πŸ™‚

Got down

Bought food

Helped Shena a bit with the stuff for retreat

Good food! πŸ™‚

Good set

Noticed a few stuff about Jairus’ playing

I went all out for the last song! πŸ™‚

Got home

Got food! πŸ™‚

Woke up

VT was nice!

Watched our video, Mr Ong said that we missed the mark and didn’t achieve what we sought out for

Quite annoyed at myself…

VP is really fun though!

I really enjoy doing Video stuff… :/

Got to grandma’s late

Thought of the shots

Tried some stuff out and it worked!

Went to sleep

Woke up feeling horrible, tired, don’t wanna go to school… 😦

Got up anyway and got to school

5 minutes late… At least I wasn’t VERY late

Managed to film finish all the shots!

Got off early

Got to go home with Tat and Nok Wan!

Good chat with Nok Wan!

Got home ate a bit of snack and went to Toa Payoh for cell

So glad I went

Bought my favourite much Chee! πŸ™‚

Enjoyed dinner with friends though the food was… :/

Go Fest was amazing!

Worship atmosphere, the testimonies, the acts, the sermon, WOW. So good!

Enjoyed some chat with the guys! πŸ™‚

Woke up pretty late today

Had bee boon for breakfast

109 came fast

Saw S, believe that she saw me too

Got to church early

Got to chat a little with Kiat! πŸ™‚

Got my snare! πŸ™‚

Played and jammed a bit with the drums! πŸ™‚

Sound check went well

Worship set went well!

Good chat with Glen Neo

Had bread! πŸ™‚


Went to do some work!

Only managed to rename and rough edit a bit of the footage.

Ben bought dinner for me! πŸ™‚

Talked to Keith a bit and had quite a nice chat about our ministries

Went and heard about Esna’s trip

Really amazing! πŸ™‚

Went home with Van and Claire

Had quite a nice chat and fun time with them and just playing and talking! πŸ™‚

Caught up to 109!

Got to church

Awesome got Joseph to come for cell breakfast!

Jethro came as well!

Food was so good!

Such a nice breakfast place but a bit hot… 😦

Haha had my Murphy’s law set

Worshipped God nevertheless!

J brought R! HAHAHA!

Most of my guys responded to the altar call!

Lord, send them!

Chased after someone

But did not catch…

Nice chat with Jerome and Sean!

Got home


Went to Seletar mall SongFa for dinner

Seletar Mall is actually quite a nice mall! πŸ™‚

Got back

Managed to do up a bit more for my edit!

Lord, please let me finish the edit soon!

Thank you Lord!

=256= Worship on/off Stage: Murphy’s Law Set

Whatever that can go wrong went wrong with this set and has set the bar of how Furama it can get!

In the ministry, we have a running joke about Furama, because equipment often go wrong thereβ€”mainly because there is a need of setting up and tearing down every week, more factors just goes wrong and leaving almost no time to troubleshootβ€”we would just blame it on the place. During debrief we would just use the reason, “Furama”. However to give Furama some credit, I actually like how worship is in that room. I remembered that in the G1 Hall, the sound was REALLY loud… G2 manages to get it quite alright, but having to change to a location with soft worship sets is quite nice! πŸ™‚ I do think that Furama will be perfect for Acoustics sets though! It is very good! πŸ™‚

Ok back to the Murphy’s Law set. During soundcheck, we noticed something Pop-ing and malfunctioning. My hi-hat trigger seemed to have some back sound. We off the drum set and reset it, so we thought that it was alright! However, that wasn’t the case at all…

Somewhere during the second song my drum set just stopped giving sound. I had absolutely no idea what to do. I mean, if I stop playing, what if it comes back on? If I don’t stop the how to solve the problem. I thought that it was the snare trigger at first, but the cable was in, so yeah… Then Leb came up and checked, still no sound. Then we have no idea what was wrong, but something was giving us a problem. Then during the transition to the third song we kinda had sound, but the trigger just blew on us and made a super loud blow on the speakers. Well, after it happened for two times, I went to the hi-hat to keep time, but it blew again. -sigh- Bro Choo did a fantastic job recovering from the blows and addressed the congregation.

Leb was very calm throughout and told me that we do not know if the problem was due to the connection at the drum set or the connection at the patch bay(at least that is what I think it was called). Then, I just told Leb that I don’t play anything lor. I mean if I do and it pops again I am hindering people from worshiping God as well. Since there was no time for troubleshooting and fixing it during worship might distract rather than help worship. I thought that it was the best thing to do. Leb agreed and just put down my sticks and worship God. Leb was very kind to be so ready to help out and pat me on the shoulder after he told the band that I was not going to play anymore. Thanks Leb! πŸ™‚

Then one more thing that just made me laugh a bit. After Leb told the rest of the band what to do, he told me to just worship. I was once again reminded of what Nell said during the first set that I served in. “Just Worship”. It was something that I held on to closely. Back when I was that panicky drummer that freaks out over everything single detail of the set, afraid that something will go wrong(and it did), Nell advised me to “Just Worship”. Stop freaking out and have faith in God. That set was really memorable. I remembered having a conversation with a dear friend and she told me that she could never forget the first time she expressed worship differently as well. Today, when everything went wrong, the advise given to me once again was to “Just Worship”. Trust God and have faith in Him, let Him and not you do the work. And I did. I give thanks.

Honestly, it was a good set even though I couldn’t play much. The band recovered and pieced together a very nice arrangement of the worship songs! What was my role then? I am a worshipper. I often forget that. That I am first a worshipper then a drummer. It is a lesson I need to swallow! πŸ™‚ Like Esna said, when everything else you are comfortable about worship is gone, are you still able to worship? For me, my greatest expression of worship right now is drums. I really do enjoy worshiping the Lord with my instrument! πŸ™‚ now with it gone, will I still be able to worship? Honestly, I was distracted. Do I go down? Do I stay here? Do I off the drum triggers and play the pads? I decided not to play a thing. This was mainly because I was scared that if I off the drum set during the set it will pop again. Apart from that, I decided to do what I normally do off stage.

The reason I named this segment “Worship on/off Stage” was because I realised that I had a responsibility as a worship leader to lead on and off stage. My thought process was that if you want a certain result, you be the example, you be the leader. So if you want the congregation to jump during worship, you yourself have to jump during worship. You want the congre to clap, you have to clap. You want the congre to sing, you have to sing. Hence, I always pull my boys along to the front to worship, jump even though no one is jumping and initiates clapping. I am glad to the see the fruits of my labour. Today my boys came to the front, without me pushing them to the front, smiled at me when I looked at them! πŸ™‚ I am so glad that I brought them to the front and worshipped with them!

This time, it was rather different, I mean, right now I am worshipping facing the congre and I just feel a bit inadequate and out of place! However, since the situation called for it, I wi just worship God with all I can do. If I can’t play drums, I will sing then! πŸ™‚ Thank You Lord, for such a nice object lesson! πŸ™‚

Lord, treat my heart and teach my heart to be more of a worshipper! Thank You Father!