=334= Gear Talk: Lenses

Argh! Having expensive intrests just suck! Now I want to buy so many things!

1. A djembe
This is for a good reason ok! I wanna buy it for ministry! I just think that a djembe sounds better than a cajon! Cajon just seem to have an identity issue! Like just stop copying a drum set can? Went to scout for it and found an extremely beautiful sounding djembe! It is $219 for a solid mahogany shell djembe! It was absolutely the best sounding djembe I heard and the price was really good! The only downside is that it is rope tuned. Meaning that it will take forever to tune the djembe and that replacing heads will be quite difficult too… :/ oh well, let’s see how!

2. Logic Pro
I really want to get it as a tool for song writing, but I am scared that I would not keep at it… Let’s see how again!

3. Lenses for my camera!
It is true, what good is a interchangeable lens camera if you don’t change lenses? Might as well buy a compact! I really want to buy two lenses, but no money! So kinda torn between the two! Number one is the Sony 28mm f2 lens for full frame. I really like what I have been reading about this lens. Well, first thing is that it is a lens for full frame! Which basically means that if I ever decide to upgrade to an A7 I can still use that lens! Of course, even the APS-C lenses can be used on full frame, but you know, in APS-C mode, which kinda defeats the purpose of a full frame sensor. Second, because my camera is APS-C, it gives me a crop factor focal length of 42mm! Which I think is great! It will be an amazing normal lens, imitating the human eyes! Just tried it, gave really nice bokeh! The second lens being the 18-105mm f4 G lens. I tried it and the speed just blew my mind. It was so fast to focus! :O very nice!

4. Zoom H2n
I want to buy this because of all the fun things I can do with it! It is gonna be quite a cool field recorder! Just imagine of all the worship sets I can record in SURROUND! :DDD It will be quite nice to have! 🙂

I think I am really very Lor Sor over gear Sia! Haha! I think I can be the sales person alr! 😂

-Kelvin-

=333= Reflections: Me And Earl And The Dying Girl

Well, recently, I found out how to rip protected DVDs to my com. Hence, I tried doing it so that I can put movies into my phone and watch it whenever I want to.

The first movie I ripped was “Me And Earl And The Dying Girl”. And oh yeah, such a great movie! 😀

Just think about it ok? How in the world is it possible to make a tragic movie both sad and funny? The movie’s script was really good, to be able to capture the humour in the funny parts and capture the solid acting in the dramatic parts. That is just great!

Appealing to both the average person who knows little about foreign cinema and a foreign cinema expert, I think it really is a masterpiece!

So far I only spotted one continuity error. However, that can be argued that it was happening in Greg’s mind.

After watching again, two things stuck.

One was that I saw that this movie wasn’t about Rachel dying, it was about Greg making his first friend.  Throughout the movie you will learn that Greg has a Super Low self esteem and is afraid to call someone his Friend. Hence, he called Earl his co-worker. You will notice that he said things like, “but Rachel and I still became friends” and titles like, “the part when Rachel and I become friends”. So Greg actually opened up and accepted Rachel as his Friend. Hopefully, after Rachel’s death he will consider Earl to be his Friend.

Second was how it is actually possible to want to do something even though that isn’t want you wanted to do in the first place. Rachel said one line that just made the air stop, “Your mum forced you hang out with me. Earl forced you to show me your movies. Madison forced you to make a movie about me. So yeah, what part of this do you actually want to do?”

It is possible to want to do something after being forced to.

Ok just that.

-Kelvin-

=332= Reflections: Drum Community

I started to give suggestions to the drummers of J333, not because I am arrogant(though I was SO afraid that I am and would approach them with a proud spirit), but because I just want to help them.

Now that I think about it. The way that I have gotten to my standard of playing was because of all the suggestions that Leb gave every time when I fail. The meticulous nit picking was what that sharpened my playing. Though, sometimes it is not that I don’t want to do something, but was because that I do not understand when or how to do it.

I personally do think that drumming is difficult. It really isn’t easy to have so many things happening at once. Having to coordinate your limbs. Having to keep time. Having to know where to do fills. Having to manage dynamics. Having to support the band when they do special stop starts and special arrangements.

It honestly isn’t, but I want to make it simpler. When we prayed during upper room, I had a desire placed in my heart. I want to start a drumming community in church. Maybe like have a special event when we just come and share ideas. Like, for those that are serving consistently to learn something from the pros and those that play well to teach. I want a platform for that. I do not know what, I just want a more encouraging and stress free environment to play and share tips with each other.

I also have another desire. To basically find someone, ask if he wants to worship with me and just book a room in church and just go. I want to create a platform where people can just come to worship God. I want a platform that allows people that aren’t musically inclined to worship God. Don’t know how, but I will think about it.

Thinking of investing in a Djembe too. As in I am quite tired of bending down to  play the cajon. I kinda want something like a conga! But I think a djembe will be better because it is lighter and smaller! Sounds nicer too! 😀

I think it will be a good investment, since the teams has been getting smaller, having a different instrument will kinda change things and have a different flavour for different weeks. Who knows? Maybe I might even play both for one set? 😀

Enjoyed my tertiary cell! Was good! 😀

-Kelvin-

=331= Thanksgiving: JED! 2014

Whatever that I wanted to said about LC 2014 had been said before on this space already. Hence, I just wanna say that I am glad and so thankful to have such a group of friends here.

Well, QiYi asked if I was bored and honestly I wasn’t, I guess just having the company was enough for me. We might not have done much, but I am just thankful that we came and spent some time together just being in each other’s presence.

I guess gatherings like this just kinda got a bit awkward. Cause technically it isn’t a cell anymore, so while we know that the triple Es were our cell leaders, when we meet up, it is solely based on the fact that we were good friends and want to meet up and just spend some time together. No longer because we are coming together to meet and listen to the triple Es speak and have us share.

That isn’t a bad thing honestly! I kinda enjoy that we still put in effort to put time out to meet. However, it kinda gets a bit aimless, hence, it just got a bit awkward. Just a little bit. Perhaps we should really plan something more productive! Maybe sharing something more objectively rather than speaking among ourselves. Maybe just maybe!

I really regret not sharing my heart out during one of the meetings we had! Kinda want to invest in this group of people more! Oh well, thank God for this family! 🙂  

Well, it is good to not be on alert. To just stay put and not be on a superior/higher/more experienced/senior/older/wiser blah blah blah role. Just enjoyed listening to people rather than speaking all the time.

I asked all my mentors, leaders and close friends to pray for me over one issue in my life and that is to be able to trust and be vulnerable with people. I kinda find it hard to do that after events that happened over the past three years. I personally don’t really what a lot of friends. I just want to have a few close friends. However, I had a bad track record. The friends that I invested deeply into just slowly faded away out of my life. It really hurt when that happened. Caused me to close up to many people. I mean sure, we may not be as close as a particular season, but don’t shut me out of your life completely can? Hey, it may not mean a lot to you, but I really put in a lot of myself to maintain a friendship. Just because we stopped talking for a few months, we just become strangers? How does that even happen? Come on! I don’t really want to be hurt anymore. I kinda had enough. I don’t want to invest so much and get so little in return.

Tiff was very good at drawing out my heart’s emotion. I tend to hide it behind several other things that are problems too, but not the main problem. She then told me that when there is a perspective shift that life will be much more enjoyable and happy. The change being to realise that this life doesn’t belong to me. If this life belongs to God, then I really don’t have much to worry about don’t I? Failed friendships, failed relationships, failed ministries are not what defines me. God is the one that defines me. God holds my life and I live for him and not me. When that change happens, my achievements don’t matter anymore, it is whether I am doing what God is telling me to do that matters.

I observed and started to really admire PJ as well. I actually had heard quite a few bad comments about PJ’s style and work flow etc. However, when I look at him up close and see him try his best to do what God is telling him to, I cannot say that what he does isn’t right. He really cares and prays fervently for the youth ministry. Whatever changes he dreams of is for the good of the young people. He is trying his best to do what God tells him. Have you seen his spirit? His spirit was amazing. Look at him up close. Look at how he worships and prays. Look at the posture that he puts himself in. Hear the words he speaks. Hear the amount of faith he has in his words. That is a man of God.

Just like how life will continue to unfold as long as you pay attention to it. God’s words will continue to unfold and be revealed when you pay attention to it. The people that prayed for you. Start to take note of what they say. Old or young. Simple or complicated. General or specific. Start listening. The people that are placed above you and under you. Start to admire qualities that they have and exercise that. Start to admire young people and what you can learn from them. The people around you, start to invest and form strong bonds and friendships.

Haha, something made me happy today too! 🙂 so yeah!

Now, just let me rest and sleep so that I can wake up for tmr’s 8am lesson!

-Kelvin-

=330= Reflections: Inception

Cobb: I can’t stay with her anymore because she doesn’t exist.

Mal: I’m the only thing you do believe in anymore.

Cobb: I wish. I wish more than anything. But I can’t imagine you with all your complexity, all you perfection, all your imperfection. Look at you. You are just a shade of my real wife. You’re the best I can do; but I’m sorry, you are just not good enough.

-Inception-

Watched Inception again, was so impressed with the movie when i watched it in the cinema back in 2012. Loved it, watched the movie online, bought the DVD, watched it again.

I watched the show and this particular sentence reminded me of Full Metal Alchemist! HAHA! Well, totally unrelated, but totally as awesome. Well, just a back story, FMA is an anime about two brothers that lost their bodies when they tried to bring back their deceased mother from the dead with Alchemy, a science in their world, and failed.

I just wanna say, it takes more than just Water (35 L), Carbon (20 kg), Ammonia (4 L), Lime (1.5 kg), Phosphorous (800 g), Salt (250 g), Saltpeter (100 g), Sulfur (80 g), Fluorine (7.5 g), Iron (5 g), Silicon (3 g) and fifteen traces of other elements to make a human. It takes more than just memories to make up a person.

Even if you think you know everything about a person, trust me, continue to talk, you guys will realise something that you don’t know about the other party.

That brings me to “Me and Earl and the Dying Girl”

Life will continue to unfold as long as you pay attention. It is possible to know more about someone after he/she dies. Lovely truth.

Kinda wanna read the book now! HAHA!

Ok just this! 🙂

-Kelvin-

=329= Reflections: Nexus

Well, I was asked to serve for the Nexus Weekend a few weeks back. Several things happened that actually made Nexus a very special event today.

One, was how I found time for it. When I was first asked to serve, I was a little worried because I would be serving at Elevate that weekend too. However, Jun Kang asked me to swap with him the week before, hence that freed up my week. This past week was C&I Week, hence, there wasn’t much work to be done! Thank God!

Two, was how I was ministered to during rehearsal and broke down during rehearsal over the song “Forever”. Having gone through such a rough period, it was really overwhelming when I can worship in abandon again.

Three, was how I was humbled again by music. Humbled by how much I don’t know about it. I guess i grew complacent over the past year; not practicing much and expected myself to perform well, just can’t believe I am that arrogant. When I missed the 3/4 bar in “Whom Shall I Fear”, I knew I need to be humble again. No point being proud when you are no where near good.

Four, how the word, “Play for God and not man or myself” stuck. Bro Isaac pointed it out about a month ago that he observed me and that I seemed to be seeking approval from people for my playing and not worshiping. Brian said the same thing. I guess when multiple people point out the same thing, it is time to stop. Stop and genuinely worship God.

Five, how Brian’s “Have Faith!” was etched into my memory and encouraged me. Just that.

Six, how God spoke to me during J333 this week,

Seven, how I spoke to God during altar call yesterday. Might post another post talking about that.

Eight, how Josh sent me a message to pray for me.

Nine, how I worshipped listening to the spoken word portion.

Ten, Jenn Hui actually said that i played good and worshipped! HAHAHA! Well, I am really honoured because of that! Jenn was Jon Wong’s drum teacher and was the owner of the Mapex snare that Leb uses, really quite happy when Leb said that he said that! Then he came up to me to said that i played well too! Would have loved to chat more, but you know, i had to rush down to sanctuary. He added me on facebook! HAHAH!

This service will probably stick with me for a while. Thank you God for giving me the ability!

-Kelvin-

=327= Reflections: Spoke

Today, I went around Clark Quay to take photos again! Except, this time, I went with manual focus and I set my focal length to be 50mm!

It was quite difficult. I realised how much I relied on auto focus! I just cannot get used to focusing by distance and turning the ring instead of half pressing the shutter button. I had to estimate the distance between me and my subject and prefocus if I want to get in and out quickly. Still cannot get used to it. I missed the focus on several shots and sometimes missed shots because my instinct told me to half press the button instead of turning the ring.

However, it was quite exciting! 😀 some people did not notice me, hence, giving me time to focus in and really try to get that “bokeh”!

Some noticed me, but because I was too slow on the focus, missed the focus.

Some noticed me, but thought that I was shooting something else, hence, allowed me to shoot them candidly! 🙂

So what exactly am I doing?

I am trying to shoot candid shots on the streets. To capture beautiful moments that touches people’s hearts. I think there is worth doing this. I want to capture reactions and expressions in people’s lives. So yeah! Gotta love street photography and how exciting it is!

I actually experienced the first person that asked me to delete a photo! I was testing my skill of prefocusing. So I was outside of Starbucks and I pointed my camera at a couple, the couple noticed me and asked me to delete it! Oh well, they weren’t in focus anyway!

So yeah! Take photos of people you don’t know candidly. If they notice you, look at them, smile and nod your head! If they are offended and want their photo deleted, just delete it and say sorry! There is no point in trying to do something like this and get someone angry!

I am glad to be living in the digital age where things like Autofocus, Liveview, LCD Screen and Electronic View Finder exists! Just makes everything a lot easier! I heard, back in the film days, you cannot tell if a shot is good or not rift after shooting it. You need to wait for the whole roll of film to finish, develop it then you can see the results. Hence, I heard that people try to aim for 1 winner in a roll of film. Which is still pretty wasteful and expensive. Thank God for SD cards, I shot like 1k plus photos already and I still have space in my SD card! Try doing that with film and you will burn a HUGE hole in your pocket!

A good camera should have enough automation, so that it is easier to use and not confusing, and it should have enough control over the photo, so that, it is actually you using your mind to frame and compose the shot and not the camera. I saw a video of the NEX-7, my camera’s predecessor, and I found the design to be a bit confusing! I think they nailed the design for the A6000! Not the best, but it is very easy to get used to! Like it doesn’t have two dials, but it is easy enough to change such stuff! The quick set menu is good and useful! I am still loving my camera so far! 🙂 It is just so great that it is so small that I can just bring along with me everywhere I go in any bag and still have a good grip that I can shoot one handed! It is absolutely amazing!

I degressed so much from the title of the post! HAHA!

The title being what was saying how God spoke to me in J333 today. I stepped in and sat down during J333 and I heard the full time staff praying. I heard a voice, a voice so rich in the spirit that you can hear it. I am not kidding. When I heard I immediately turned to see who was it! It was the Pastor that spoke in R-AGE during GINK! Pastor Randy if I am not wrong. I was prompted to go ask him for prayer. That was just strange! Haha! We don’t know each other and I just ask for prayer? Wow!

I did anyway, he prayed a general prayer over me and I went back! Quite a funny occurrence.

When I was worshiping, I was just in awe of how we worshipped as a congregation! I heard the congregation sang and that just touched my heart.

“I will lead you there” God spoke to me.

I was just shocked by this word. I have thought about it and was quite interested, but I never thought that God would actually affirm me like that. It is gonna be scary and amazing! I am sure of it! 🙂

“I will lead you there”

I don’t believe you God, show me! 🙂

Then, I went up to pray over my family. Kennaf came up to me and prayed. He left me with this word, “I see a farmer plowing. This is what it means, continue to plow and it will bear fruit.”

This is an encouragement not just for my family but for myself.

Then, tonight, I did something that was quite unlike me. I went up to the adult drummer and gave him suggestions.

I actually wanted to do that for a long time already. Not the act of giving suggestions to adults, but helping drummers in general. Like if it was a youth, I would have gave him suggestions after rehearsal immediately. However, with adults, I am a little bit more worried. This is because, it just seemed a bit strange that I as a younger man would go up to someone older to help him. I struggled with this for such a long time. However, tonight was different. Like I was still scared, but I wasn’t worried about what others would think at all. So I stepped out and did it! Simple faith!

I did that and two things he said stuck with me. One was if I wanted to serve for J333, not in a taunting way, but yeah, they lack drummers. Well, I wouldn’t mind I guess, but I am really busy. This led him to say the second thing which just annoyed me. He said that youths very free one! -.- I told him no and he still said, “really really” come on! Trust me! I AM NOT FREE! Sure working life may be hard and busy, but that doesn’t mean that my life is free! Just see my everyday life and see how busy I am! Ok now Kelvin, stop ranting.

But yeah, just this two. He was actually very nice, so sorry for portraying him to be annoying. He was willing to listen to my suggestions when I suggested. That in itself is more than enough! He did say that the electronic drums are different, like they won’t trigger. Yup! I understand! There is a gate! But they still work in the same concept! It shouldn’t be that it affects THAT much. It is amazing drums too. So much better than the kit we played in Furama! So yeah! Work hard and play for God man! 🙂

Oh well, things are looking up! 🙂

-Kelvin-

=326= Words of Melancholy: Rough Day

It had just been the roughest day ever. However, I still cannot say that it was a bad day.

Today, we came to the briefing for stop motion. Which was cool. However, I realised that I needed to finish one of my assignments today. In which I haven’t even started… 😦 Hence, I tried to do it, but the Internet in school was just WAY too slow.

Then, after scouting for a room with my group, we went back and Mr Viktor announced the results for ATE. I got 55 out of 100. My heart just sank. I mean, I knew that I won’t do VERY well, but I thought I would at least get 60-70 plus. My mood became really depressed. I felt like crying, but I restrained. I really worked very hard for ATE. I did up a formula list, I did the paper. I memorised stuff. I did my very best already. Are you telling me that my best isn’t good enough? 

Even so, I still went on with the assignment and managed to do a great deal of it.

I decided to go church early to be alone for a while and just somehow or another feel better. On the way to the shell kiosk bus stop, I passed by the pull up bar. I decided to vent my frustrations by doing pull ups, but how pathetic, I can’t even do one real one. I need help from my legs. I guess I am just really envious of someone. This is bad, I should stop my evil coveting. Helped a bit I guess! Making my arms and chest feel a little weight does help.

Then at the bus stop, bumped into Jie Jun. Complained to her about how depressed I was. Felt better saying it out loud. Was nice to have her there to cheer me up a bit! 🙂 I guess I am really a Sanguine. I feed off people’s responses to me. Like after the first Emerge service, I wasn’t drained at all! In fact, I was energised. I believe that because they were young, they are not at the cool cool stage and would still respond to me! One of the most tiring things to do in a group, is trying your best to hype up your group but they don’t respond. That tires me WAY more than having me be an insane Jim Carrey person. At least, I have a connection and I am not the only one giving.

Got to the bus stop, went to NTUC and bought a pack of spicy tapioca snack. Was so good! 🙂

Did my work until I lost track of time. I did work until dinner, I normally would leave like 1 hour free to practice a bit.

Had dinner, was nice! 

Worship rehearsal was difficult. Having not used metronome for so long, I just kept going off time. 😦 Then, I missed the 3/4 bar in “Whom Shall I Fear” in my preparation. Leb was really disappointed. 😦 The last time I played this song was at Hometeam NS and that set was horrible too. My brain just went along with it even after some strange pauses, I thought, it was just me not playing in time. Just so bad.

Sounded rough enough? I still cannot say that it was a bad day. The reason being that I met God today. Of course not physically, but I could really sense His presence tonight and it broke me. First time being ministered by the song I am playing while I am playing it to the point when I broke down. I played and all the emotions came.

Forever he is glorified

Forever he is lifted high

Forever he is risen

He is alive, He is alive!

The spoken word portion really stirred me up. And I was tearing up while playing, during rehearsal. I can’t believe that.

Then, after rehearsal, I asked Leb to help me point out the 3/4 bar again. Then, Brian told me to play for God. This word; telling me to play for God and not man or myself have been repeating recently. However, I guess it just didn’t go in until tonight. Brian shared and it hit me right in the heart. I was about to cry already but I left before I did. I cried while walking down the stairs. Complained once again about how my best isn’t enough.

Funny thing is that, I know that it isn’t. My best can never reach God’s standard of perfection. I learned that. I even taught that. How could I have forgotten about it? My best isn’t good enough, that is why like Brian said, “HAVE FAITH”. Have faith in a God that loved me so much that he gave his one and only Son for me. That he would die for me. Let him take control. Let him guide your life. Not my best, but let him show you his best. His best of dying for me.

A reassuring sentence from Brian telling me that I can do it was really nice. I really needed the encouragement.

I then went back home and had a nice chat with Shena about Photography! 🙂 Really needed my mind to be on something else and not be so freaking melancholic.

You know what? You know what started this season of ungratefulness and coveting? From my application of my scholarship and overseas trips. Sure. I do not have a CCA and that makes me under qualified for MANY things in school. You know what, so be it. Even if my best work, my best lesson, my best set is overlooked by the world, so be it. I need to stop being jealous over people with good grades, good group of friends, good CCA record, good fitness. Stop. Just stop. I made a decision as a man to honour my God, to serve him with whatever capacity I have, I live with it. No not just live with it, I live with it gratefully. Sure, I gave up a lot. However, I cannot say that I lost much. I gave it up for God, for my family, for my kids, for my ministry. For what I deem more important. For that I give thanks. That when others pursue things that wouldn’t last, I pursued something that will last. For eternity and beyond.

So when you catch me being ungrateful, rebuke me. Remind me of the things I have.

God, please start a new chapter of my life with you in control!

Good results, bad results, whatever, bring it on. Whom shall I fear if God is with me?

-Kelvin-