=348= Reflections: 5am

Well, I think that my body is quite excited and nervous at the same time! Waking me up at 5am!

Well, I really hope that I will be fine in this 5 months!

Looking at my stats, I had 82 views yesterday! :O Haha, I see you read my blog, D! Thanks for reading! 🙂

Let’s just see what will happen in this 5 months.

Thinking about how I should spend my money after my salary. After considering, I thought about something also. Should I save up for a new laptop?

Well, not that there is anything wrong with my com except that it is slow, I just thought that maybe the money would be better spent if I went and got myself a laptop instead of all kinds of small small stuff.

Maybe.

However, maybe I should do it after army. After all, you know, the models then will be newer and faster!

The only thing will be the softwares. So I hope that Uni will provide  all the useful softwares for the future.

The best is yet to come! 🙂

Do stay in contact with me ok? Haha, I want friends!

-Kelvin-

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=347= Song List: Just Getting By

“Just Getting By” by Tenth Avenue North

Oh,when we were born
When we first arrived
We took it all in
Through innocent eyes

But we got jaded, cause the beauty faded
So now we fake it in worlds built in the sky
But we keep comin’ up dry

I’m waking up to what’s around me
I’ve lost too much to a fantasy
I’m tired living like I’m just getting by
Just getting by
I’m just getting by

Life can take a toll
Everyday demands
So much energy so many mundane plans

So we go digital, purely phisical
Hey, it’s just medicinal
We need to ease our minds

I’m waking up to what’s around me
I’ve lost too much to a fantasy
I’m tired living like I’m just getting by
Just getting by
I’m just getting by

I want to be all here now
Wherever I am, that’s where I’ll be found
Staying present even in the fear now
Life with open eyes
Please don’t pass me by

Life don’t pass me by, life don’t pass me by
Feel a spark when we look each other in the eye

I’m waking up to what’s around me
I’ve lost too much to a fantasy
I’m tired living like I’m just getting by
Just getting by
I’m just getting by
I don’t want to just get by

~

Ever had that feeling when you are just so tired and don’t feel like listening to anything on your music library?

It has been a while since I found an album that I really liked. The last one was a 五月天 album, but that isn’t fair cause I like all their stuff. Then the previous album that I really liked was the 起飞 album with Singapore songs! The previous Favourite English album was very long ago.

Here are some albums I absolutely love:

  1. Dashboard Confessional’s “A Mark A Mission A Brand A Scar”
  2. Phillip Phillips’ “The World From The Side Of The Moon”
  3. Twin Forks’ “Twin Forks”
  4. John Mayer’ “Where The Light Is”
  5. Jesus Culture’s “Live In LA”

And now!

Tenth Avenue North’s “Cathedrals”

I really grew quite tired of listening to music for a while, then this album came along and it was just what I needed to listen to. Ministered to me so much. Such a perfect blend of a secular and christian music. I just adore this album.

You might be surprised that I didn’t include a Michael Buble’s album in the list. I didn’t include them because I think as an album, they aren’t as amazing as the ones that I listed. Like, I love Michael’s voice, love every song he sings, would really wish that I can go for his concert and some tracks would really blow your mind away. I just don’t think that as an album, it would hold up compared to the ones I listed.

Same for 五月天. I love every single one of their songs, love the arrangements and emotions, love the dynamics, would really love to go for their concert, but as an album, they aren’t as strong.

Thing is that is quite sad considering that one is my favourite singer and one is my favourite band.

It’s like in photography where I like all the person’s photos, but when put together as a collage, it just isn’t as outstanding.

If I do have to make a choice, for Michael Buble would be his Christmas album. For 五月天, would be their 步步 compilation album.

I really like Martin Smith’s God’s Great Dance Floor as well. Martin Smith is brilliant.

Oh well, so far that is what I enjoy. I can tell you that I have a lot of albums. Among them, the ones I listed are the ones that are amazing!

So yeah, go and buy those albums!

Back to the song, I just think that this song is very apt and just articulates what I feel now! 🙂

-Kelvin-

=345= Gear Talk: Salary

Ok, these are just a few things I want when I do get my salary from my internship.

  1. A Sirui T-025x Tripod
  2. Reshell my triple fi 10s to customs
  3. The Sigma 60mm f2.8 DN A lens
  4. The ZhongYi Lens Turbo
  5. The Sony 10-18mm f4 lens
  6. The Sony 18-105mm f4 lens
  7. The Sony 55-210mm f5.6-6.3 lens
  8. A trip with my friends, I dunno, I just kinda want to travel with friends rather than family! Just a short trip I guess, maybe a mission trip

Haha, oh well, let’s see! Dreaming even when I haven’t earn a single cent yet!

=343= Words of Melancholy: Tagline

Just changed the tagline of this blog from, “Words was how God spoke us and I shall do the same” to “Just a man that is struggling to live a God led life in a God strayed world”

At first when I started this blog, I simply wanted to share my reflections about the bible and what God reveals to me through it. I kinda wanted to get popular with this channel with how much this kid knew about God. 

Sure, over time I did get closer with God. I knew more about the Bible in this past three years than the four years that I was a cell kid. I learned about how real the Bible was and not just a fairy tale. I learned doctrine that was incredible.

However, as I quote another blog that I read, “There is something more important than learning doctrine and that is experiencing doctrine.”

I found it harder and harder to post intellectual content on this platform and I found myself posting things more to my heart and reflect upon things that are more about my life and how God has impacted me.

Over time, this platform just became a platform for me to sort my thoughts out. To say what I need to say.

Why the depressing tagline?

I feel myself just getting busier and busier and I just stopped having enough stamina to move. I kept feeling more and more tinges of envy. I kept feeling crappy when I see someone doing better than me in the aspects that I am not doing well at all.

I feel it harder and harder to live a righteous God led life in this world as I grow older. How? Just how does one do it? How can you go through life balancing between so many things? It is just impossible. You cannot serve two masters. Choose.

One, choose the God of the universe that created you and the world around you. He promises you with eternity and give you his kingdom to live with forever and ever.

Two, choose the world that is God strayed and society led. They promise you with a great 60 years ahead of you(your future, they say), money and temporary pleasure.

You would think that the choice is simple. Pick the longest lasting one!

Yeah, like the human brain thinks so linearly. The human brain thinks about life with reference to now. What does it have now? What are we gonna have now? What will you want now?

It is hard ok? It is hard to think of eternity when your eyes can only see the present.

I find myself struggling again and again. I won’t stray away from God, but it just gets really difficult to stay with God and be in the world.

J asked this during contact time a few weeks ago, “Will we lose favour with man when we gain favour with God? Is that the only way”

Is that the only way?

If you asked me when I was that young 17 year old child like faith dude back in 2013, I would definitely said “No! It isn’t! If you gain favour with God, you will definitely gain favour with man because God will transform you to be a better and more pleasant man”

If you ask this cynical 20 year old, I will be hesitant to answer. I know the textbook answers. Trust me. Acting them out is a lot tougher than you think. I too want to be the man that has both the favour with God and men. However it is not the case at all. I must love God more than men. So if the times comes to give up favour from one party, I would choose to give up the favour from men.

Over the years, I came to see that I am just a man struggling to keep afloat in this sinking boat called the world.

I am no great man. I can’t do lots of things.

However, if God calls, I will do it, because I love God. I love God so much. I want to stop and give up everything but no, God called, so I won’t stop.

How can I stop when the God I love actually sent His own Son to die for me?

I am tired yes, but I am not dead. I am still living. I am still living because God breathed His life into me. Clothed me and blessed me with amazing things. Lord, to where you call me to.

I am actually quite disgusted at how I turned out this year, so you know what? Let 2016 be the year where Kelvin becomes a better man. Lord, transform my inside out. Transform my heart. Stay in my life. Allow me to worship you!

Thank you Lord.

-Amen-

-Kelvin-