Ok just taking a break for like a few minutes before doing more work. 😭
Guys, these past few weeks have been insane. Never have I spent so much time in school and never have I spent so much time with my group mates. Now, I just want to rest and sleep. 😭
Well, the Lord is good. I feel a lot closer to my friends after this Sem. AHAHAHA. I mean, with so much time spent, it is quite likely that it will happen.
The whole week will be tiring. Just cannot wait for Friday to be over and I can just think about something else apart from AEPG, FSD and SDLP. Goodness.
Well, Lord, please sustain me.
I forgot to praise God over something the past week.
When I reached quite rock bottom last week, I received Psalm 32 from the Lord and it brought so much comfort to me.
Psalm 32 reads
“It is a great blessing when people are forgiven for the wrongs they have done, when their sins are erased. It is a great blessing when the Lord says they are not guilty, when they don’t try to hide their sins. Lord, I prayed to you again and again, but I did not talk about my sins. So I only became weaker and more miserable. Every day you made life harder for me. I became like a dry land in the hot summertime. Selah But then I decided to confess my sins to the Lord. I stopped hiding my guilt and told you about my sins. And you forgave them all! Selah That is why your loyal followers pray to you while there is still time. Then when trouble rises like a flood, it will not reach them. You are a hiding place for me. You protect me from my troubles. You surround me and protect me, so I sing about the way you saved me. Selah The Lord says, “I will teach you and guide you in the way you should live. I will watch over you and be your guide. Don’t be like a stupid horse or mule that will not come to you unless you put a bit in its mouth and pull it with reins.” Many pains will come to the wicked, but the Lord ’S faithful love will surround those who trust in him. Good people, rejoice and be very happy in the Lord. All you who want to do right, rejoice!”
Psalms 32 ERV
Oh God my Lord, I love you so much. How you sustain me through this period of time is just beyond me. Father, how you love me in spite of how much I have done wrong is beyond me. Father, your love is so deep.
I got so angry yesterday when I heard M told me that her pastor got fired by this council just because he got a divorce.
I don’t understand.
Why would a Christian Organisation, that preaches love and forgiveness, be so harsh on its leaders? Do you know how devastating it already is for the pastor to get a divorce? Do you know how much he must be hurting? Do you know how ashamed he must have felt being a pastor that cannot save his own marriage? Not only do you not love him and support him, you cut off all support and take his job away from him?
Goodness. What kind of gospel are you preaching?
If only perfect people with perfect marriages can serve God in church, there won’t be a church.
Actually, if the church cannot love and support the person, I cannot believe in the gospel that that church preaches.
“Where is God when it hurts?”
“Where is the church when it hurts?”
Don’t make me so angry at how the church have such little love and concern for people and so much empathsis on the law.
Do you even know what Jesus had preached?
We are sinners saved by grace. Serving Him even though we are still sinners. May we NEVER forget that.
May Psalm 32 be forever in my heart. That I will go back to the Lord when I sin.
The video link up there is for people reading this blog. Help guys, I need better days. I am dying under a pile of work.
Father sustain me through this period! Thank you Lord!