Today was such a strange day.
I entered the church and I straight away entered my engineering mode. Tried the new overheads mic-ing technique. (X-Y)
Did quite a few technical stuff until we entered soak. Somehow or another. I felt so unworthy to be in the house of God. It felt so overwhelming. Hence I walked out for a while. Saw Miss Tan in tears, so took the chance to go fill some warm water for her.
Once I passed it to her, she made me go up and pray. I stood there, not knowing what to pray, hence I prayed my heart. I prayed a prayer reminding myself that I am imperfect, that I am a sinner that we are all here for God. For if we spend our entire lives here and God doesn’t come down and dwell among us, what use is the church?
God, I want to meet you.
That was my heart and when I prayed, I just cried. Father, please be here.
Worship, I finally had a breakthrough. I can finally stand in place and come back home without feeling shame.
After worship, annoying Miss Tan bugged me to go down to buy food for her. Tsk. HAHA. When I went down, I bumped into Robin. Haha, gotta love my boss. We had a rather nice chat and it was really nice to know that he still wants to involve me in the Gracesongs process.
My successors did a fantastic job today. Andre mixed really well. Jowea was sharp and quick on the job, she getting triggered on aesthetics just made me laugh. Dan knew what to do as well. Today when I was in service, I honestly didn’t do much. Thank you God for people to help support this ministry.
Then, rushed off to Ngee Ann City for a birthday meal. Food was fantastic. My family are all so nice, they are offering me a lot of money to buy whatever I want. Still thinking.
God, thank you for today! 🙂