This will probably be the last post of the year. I have a thought swimming in my head for a while.
Why is it that when you feel lonely, you will be naturally drawn to do something? Why will someone lonely want to be seen doing something?
I thought it was meant to distract yourself, but the more I thought about it, the less I think it is true.
To distract yourself is a personal issue—basically to occupy yourself so that you won’t even think that you are busy. However, what I feel most of time is different. I don’t want to be seen lonely. HAHA.
The answer I arrived at was, “I need a reason to be lonely.”
Basically, when I am lonely, I want it to be justified. For example, I am alone because I am busy doing work. If I have a reason behind why I am lonely, then I won’t be out of place. If not, I am this little dude that is alone without reason.
Being out of place is uncomfortable, so I rather be busy.
HAHA. I have no idea why, but it is just me I guess. Let me see how to get rid of this feeling next year. Time limit is 6 months. Let’s see what I should do.
God, the possibilities are never ending! Show me how you would use me in this season! 🙂