Thanksgiving of the Day: 9/4/2018

9/4 Thanksgiving:
Actually wanted to do CPFA, but ended not doing it, but did PT with Lance.
Nice chat with Lance about stuff.
When we cleaned the staircase, we got praised by RSM.
Parade rehearsal went pretty well.
Spent some time with Greg eating cookhouse and cut hair.
Unexpected welfare.
Well rested.
Touched my drums for the first time in a long time.
Came up with some fun beat ideas.
Ahma looks better today.
Home cooked food is always great.
Did a lot of push-ups today.
Walked back to camp with Lance and had a nice chat


Thanksgiving of the Day: 8/4/2018

8/4 Thanksgiving:
I woke up late but someone woke up later than me
Had a nice chat with Clarence on the bus
Breakfast was good
Had a very nice long nap
Duty had some unforeseen welfare because the fans were being fixed and they had an exercise that allowed us to go off post for a while.
Finished watching Riverdale up to the latest episode
Have some time to do some work figuring out how to use Logic Pro effectively
Got back and did speed training with Glen
Had a pretty cool chat with him over dinner, reminiscing over secondary school.
Had a nice chat with Darryl in bunk about driving.

=652= Word: Appointment

There are some things I cannot reconcile with myself.

I always meet with this statement that I find strange. “For his/her appointment, he wouldn’t need to do any ground work.”

“You know he is just learning, but he won’t be doing right? This is because at his appointment, he shouldn’t be doing all these.”

This statement is talking about how a person who is at a high post in a job shouldn’t/wouldn’t do certain duties, because they should be doing more “important” work.

I cannot reconcile with this statement because it just doesn’t make sense to me. It just isn’t fair you see, who says just because you are at a high rank, you shouldn’t do ground work?

Pull anyone out from the field they are familiar with and I can tell you what you are left with is someone that is inexperienced. There is so much to consider, group culture, what kind of hat you should wear, skills to learn etc etc.

Who is to say that just because I am in a high post, I cannot do things I want?

If appointment keeps me from doing things I want to do, then maybe appointment isn’t that great a thing to have.

The person with the highest post should be the most free man in spite of responsibilities. To quote one piece, to be Pirate King is to be the most free man on the sea.

It may be a very simplistic way of thinking, but I feel that if I am learning something new, I would want to be humble and start from the bottom and slowly move up. I wouldn’t want to be of high rank but no substance. I much rather have more substance than my rank requires of me. Substance and character is more important that a high post.

Is there really a need to chase after paper? Is there a need to chase after life, when you clearly know that life is chasing after you?

No wonder Agur Son of Jakeh said this:

“God, I ask you to do two things for me before I die. Don’t let me tell lies. And don’t make me too rich or too poor—give me only enough food for each day. If I have too much, I might deny that I need you, Lord. But if I am too poor, I might steal and bring shame to the name of my God.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭30:7-9‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Truly Lord, give me enough.


=651= Words of Melancholy: Buck Up

What is this feeling?

The feeling of familiarity among a feeling of being out of place.

Feeling of being close to few and not wanting to talk to others.

Am I really that straight forward? Am I that easy to read?

I feel so tired, I have been trying so hard, why are you not listening to me, my own body?

Do you really hate God that much? Do you really love being away from God?

Come on Kelvin. Buck up. Run back to God will you? Live for Him again. Stand up and go back.

Father, please never be sick of chasing after me. Please make me a better person.


On the bright side of things, I started producing quite a bit of stuff for my own works. It has been incredible. It is really so much fun. Soon I will have my own track out with the music video. Hopefully I can produce something if high quality.


=650= Reflections: Opinion

Hmm, as I continue to produce my chinese song, I am bombarded with quite a few opinions.

It is rather hard to find a sweet spot where everyone is happy. One person tells me the song is too fast and another tell me that the song is too slow. I guess that is my job, to test what is doable and try if it is feasible. If it isn’t then I will have to stick to what I have. I will have to decide what I want and what I don’t.

Just last night we had a dialogue with our superior and it was just quite a tiresome session getting scolded. Our superior laid down what he had to make our platoon better and kept pointing to the point that we do nothing. He kept introducing stuff to us to do. I mentioned several stuff that is out of his appointment to do.

I am rather disappointed with some of my platoon mates. They just have such bad arguing skills. Why are you fighting for something that is a by left issue? And fight with no substance? Your point cannot be supported because it has no logic behind it, you are just making things worse.

To make an argument, you need cold hard facts that is for a good cause. You cannot argue, “why can’t we stay in bunk?” Because we all know we are not supposed to be in bunk. You can only argue that the room isn’t big enough to ask for some sort of a compromise.

To fight a battle like this is like telling our superiors that we have been doing the wrong thing all along, so why can’t we do the wrong thing now?

Compromise needs leverage. You can’t use something wrong as leverage, is it really so hard to see?

Well it isn’t that my superior is all correct too. I realised that I have a low tolerance for questions that you want your answer for. You cannot try to make a point about doing nothing, booking in just to book out, when we were suggesting to do stuff in the morning. How is that not doing something? Can we please have someone who can actually make a point that is valid?

Oh well, our moral is down now, I wonder what else will happen. -sigh-

Being a leader isn’t about deciding things and push your decisions to your underlings. It also takes a huge amount of listening and testing and doing stuff. There is also a limit to what you can do in a day. If you really feel like comparing, why don’t you compare then. You probably will be surprised with what you see. Not everyone will be happy, but I wonder if there could be a better solution.

Oh well. Hope the changes will be manageable.