=679= Word: Drive and Desire

The desire to do something, first starts with actually doing something. Desire and drive for something is from doing the act.

Sometimes one just needs to do the act without any desire to. After that comes more motivation to sustain, more energy to continue.

At its root, desire and drive is what it is, a want—desiring something doesn’t equate to doing it. Doing the act has more weight.

God, help me to do such things even though I don’t desire to right now. Then, help me to desire to do such things.

Help me Lord.

Speaking about doing things that I don’t want to. May God help me in my journey now. Bless me Father.


=678= Word: Drums

Recently, at night, even if it is early, I will be very tired. Like you just finished a long run tired. HAHA.

Yesterday I managed to help Z a bit with his Cajon playing. Well, he is actually really not bad at it, but he just lack some dynamics. It is a funny thing, back when I was in his shoes, I really dreaded the Cajon. It was quite difficult to break out of the four limb coordination to play everything with two hands.

Subsequently, Cajon became really easy to me. Probably because of how often we have had acoustic sets back in Furama. Then, I kinda felt limited when it comes to Cajon. I mean, I can play quite a few fancy stuff now, but it seems to feel that I can express what I want better with drumset now. Cajon is in some sense harder, because there is a limited amount of sounds.

I was never someone that practices chops like every time you sit behind a drumset. I have always been the kinda guy that likes to play grooves. The drummers that I admire, Chad Smith, Steve Jordan, Benny Greb, Nate Smith etc etc, all have incredible groove. However, if you really inspect their playing, you will realise that beyond the groove, what and how they play their fills are crazy too. Their chops are groovy.

One should never ask the question if you are more of a chops drummer or groove drummer, because quite frankly, you can’t just be one. Even if you can pull off the grooviest beat, you still need fills if not you lack flavour. Even if you can pull off the sickest fills, but if you cannot keep a beat constant, it is hard to play with you. Everything we do as a Musician needs to return back to music.

I think even if I don’t practice drums, I can still improve my playing by improving musicianship. Learning a new instrument. Analysing how other drummers do stuff. When can a triplet fill be executed? Most of the time, even if one can play something, doesn’t mean he can sound as good. I mean, best example would be the president of my drum school can probably play quite crazy stuff, but I still don’t think he sounds quite as good as Rudy or Caleb. They may not be able to play as much, but they are better musicians because of how they sound.

Being able to do something needs to meet an end. Will being able to play a sextuplet full mean that I am a better musician? Of course not! Learning when to execute it will!

If the end of being able to play something is so that you can play to show off. You won’t sound as good as someone playing it and learning when would be a musical time to execute it.

Music really isn’t about the notes. I mean, sure you have to play the right notes to make it sound nice, but when a musician play music, they stop thinking about what they play and they induce their emotions into what they play. We play the right notes to bring out certain feelings for the song.

Oh well, more to come! Going to practice a whole lot more! 🙂


=677= Stories To Tell: God Provides

Mr Lim is a rich christian business man. He manages many companies and during his free time, he would donate a huge portion of his pay to the St Cloud home for the homeless.

Jackie is a church guitarist. He has many years of experience and after seeing an advertisement in church he decided to play pro bono in the home for an event in St Cloud, it was Christmas and they were having a party for the homeless.

Mr Lim decided to sponsor everything about the event. From the food to the decorations, Mr Lim paid for the whole party in full. Jackie pulled some of his friends over to play music with him and they pulled off an extremely good set.

Right after the performance, the organisers of the event went on stage to give thanks to Mr Lim and Jackie for contributing to this event. They told the homeless people to clap for them.

However, there was one homeless man not clapping. He wasn’t even looking at them. Both Mr Lim and Jackie felt urged. They both put in so much effort to love the homeless, but this homeless man did not even recognise them.

After the ovation, they went towards the man. They noticed that he was crying but smiling while he ate the food. Seeing tears, Mr Lim’s and Jackie’s anger immediately subsided.

They asked the man why was he crying.

The man answered, “I was just giving thanks to God for giving me food to eat tonight and beautiful music to listen to. Truly, God provides.”


=676= Word: TW’s Wedding

Going for TW’s wedding feels kinda surreal. I mean, we all knew that it will happen, but so many years went by without us realising it and they have been dating for 8 years alr.

I still remember Footsteps(or me?) made a playful remark saying that it was surprising that he has a girlfriend! At that point in time, they were dating for 2 years and now, 6 years had gone by and they are now married.

After seeing such a big wedding, it just made me realise that I only knew one part of TW. I only ever knew the mentor part of him. I never saw the cell member part of him. I never saw the water polo part of him. Though he is close, I am really just one small part of his life and it amazes me. How does he maintain such a close relationship with so many people? It really isn’t easy to maintain a close relationship with even one person, but from what I saw, he managed to maintain it with so many people. It was really quite crazy.

I sincerely hope that even as a grow up that I will be able to maintain my friendships.

Oh well nevertheless, it really feels quite good to be the youngest in the band again. I remember how bad I was back in probation and probably the next year or so. That all the other musicians needed to compromise to play with me. This time round, I think that I was at least able to contribute as a Musician.

Praise the Lord! 🙂


=675= Five Word Post: Stale







Don’t get confused reading the title and content and realise that it has nothing in common. It does. Just not that obvious to you.

I wonder how people can get into arguments with no logic or any basis of getting angry. It is ridiculous. It is basically pointing to the sun and telling me that it is the moon.

Do people even know how to get into a fight? Tsk tsk. To be angry, you need substance. If you don’t have the substance to get angry, you shouldn’t.

Don’t tell someone they are late when they are clearly on time. You pointing to the clock was just an argument against yourself. Freaking heck. Do you even know what being late means? If you tell me to take over at 8 and I come at 7:55 to take over, am I late?

Just because you wanted me to come down at 7:50, it isn’t my fault that I came at 7:55 because you told me to take over at 8. Being an ass about something like that is just horrible. You only have yourself to blame.

Let us be clear ok? Being on time means taking over at 8, not 7:59/7:58/7:57/7:56/7:55. Don’t go around scolding people just because you wanted me to come down at this time but I didn’t.

Sometimes I wonder if getting the rank means forgetting that the people under you are humans too. Best part is, we aren’t even under you and you scold us. Wonderful.

One should never abuse authority. There is a time and place for everything. Is it that hard to be understanding?


Oh well.

It is over!

Patience is really such a hard virtue to own.


=674= Word: Musicality

Haha, it is a rather weird time for me now. It seems like there is really nothing much to update as of now. I mean several events did happen but I don’t see them having much significance to warrant a post. So yeah, I am just going to throw some stuff out and just go from there.

My music production has been a bit stuck. Several things has happened that made me a bit discouraged. My photoshop and lightroom has expired. So the single cover is never coming along. I have actually quite a few songs floating in my head as of now. To get them out and produce them as a track really takes quite a bit of time. Getting the chords out is only a small part of the story. There is so much work to try and generate like a demo track, think of what goes with what. Then finally ask someone to help. Then after recording is yet another hard process. There are hundred and one decisions on what to add. How to tune and edit the track. To generate a demo worthy track really takes quite a bit of time. It is true that I am my harshest critic.

Sometimes I watch people online talk about how they managed to make producing their career and my heart gets encouraged. I really wonder if there will be such opportunities for me. Ideally, it would really be a dream job. Mixing music for a living. Must be nice.

Recently, there have been quite a few people exploring the world of recording. More and more people are trying to record what they play. It is such a great thing! If more people get more aware of how they sound being recorded, it will only result in better musicians and they will be more aware of how to arrange and mix.

I am humbled whenever I start on my music production. There are so many people that are WAY better than me when it comes to playing music. In fact, it downright envy people who can play a pitched instrument. It really isn’t easy to remember so much of theory, having the muscle memory to play stuff. It is really amazing. I wonder if having drums as my first instrument was meant to make me a whole lot more humble. Not that drums is any less of an instrument, don’t get me wrong, but if I were to play guitar or piano as my first instrument, I probably would be able to produce all these songs with more ease.

Recently DL posted a video of him covering a song. He had friends that helped him with the shooting of the video and all. DL really made me rather self conscious. I mean, he started off as a vocalist and then he made his way all the way up to being one of the most talented musicians in CAMY. In fact, the tracks he produced are really impressive. His voice and guitar playing. Man, how I wish I sounded like that.

I then think about the people that have been trying so hard to post covers and originals over the years. CK, KY, PS, PB, DC, etc etc. Wouldn’t it be weird if I posted a song out of the blue with me singing?

I made a cover recently and it is really somewhat of an afterthought. I just tried whatever I thought was cool, mixed it together and that was it. I feel kinda ashamed that I did so much editing. It kinda makes me feel that I didn’t honour all the hard work that people have been doing all these years trying to get a song to sound good; all the vocal training that they had.

Don’t get me wrong ok, I really don’t want people to think that all you need to make a song or a cover is some engineering tricks. You definitely need musical training one. I am struggling to learn music theory now. Seeing music as a formula based thing really isn’t that helpful. It is extremely tedious. I am exploring a work around recently. There is a plug-in called the chord trigger. It is amazing! HAHAHA! I used to click all three notes to make a chord, it was REALLY tedious. Now I can input one note and it plays the chord for me.

Sorry got derailed by cool technology.

I would much rather play those notes than to rely on dead MIDI stuff. MIDI definitely has its own place, but there is really nothing like a musician playing those notes. Working on how to sing, how to play, etc etc really helps. There is a limit to how much I can edit. Just imagine an underexposed photo. No matter how hard I edit, the noise will still come out even if you use photoshop, perhaps you can rid of some noise by really cutting the layer and pasting it to a different background, but the cut layer will still have noise. It would be better and so much simpler to take a photo that is properly exposed.

What I am getting at is that musicality is really important. In fact I would put that above the engineering side of things. Engineering technicalities are way easier to grasp after you nail down the musicality part.

For me, Engineering is my strong suit. I learned it in school about the same time I got better on the drums. Just like how they put in effort to work on their singing and playing, I put in effort in my engineering. Perhaps the issue isn’t honing musicality over engineering, I think it is doing whatever you can to get the best results.

There are million of ways I can go about making a song or cover. One should focus on their strong points and really drive it home on those while working on what they are weak in.

The self consciousness, I guess, I will just have to deal with it eventually. Oh I saw the video and I thought to myself that I could film that MV much better! AHAHAHA! Not because of anything luhh, it was just too shaky. Just use a tripod and everything will look better.

I give thanks for all that God has blessed me with! Thank you for so many gifts oh Lord! 🙂