=612= Relfections: Assessment Part 2

I noticed several details during the assessment.

The lazy guy always have the worse attitude when it comes to learning. He doesn’t want to be here in NS. He doesn’t want to come to my vocation. Studying for his assessment was torture to him.

The more I saw, the more clear it is to me, the reason why was because his attitude was bad. He doesn’t learn anything because he doesn’t take pride in his work.

When a man stops taking pride in his work, this is what you will become. Lazy. Irritable. Frustrated. Angry. He will get irritated because he see no point in your actions.

When there is no meaning or significance in what you do, it will be a waste of time to you. Humans need drive and meaning. When things happen, people want the reason. When there is no drive, can you blame a person for Bad attitude?

You can only blame for no meaning or drive.

An interesting point I noticed from my friends was that the two Malays in my syndicate tend to be rather good in practical but bad in theory. They seem to think that presentation is more important than content. Well for a person that literally studies aesthetics I do think that presentation is very important. However, I do think that presentation will follow once the content is there. Content is still key.

It is rather sad, because they actually know what they are doing they just don’t have the confidence to present what they know. As a result, it appears that they don’t know what they know. Schools should teach their students how to express themselves without using bombastic vocabulary or encourage them to use simple language to do it. They get stuck in between expressing themselves and overthinking so much on how to express themselves.

Complaining that “I need a break” isn’t going to solve the problem if you need to do it. Suck it up, stop finding excuses.

If you asked someone for help and he is already trying his best to help you, don’t be an ass, if you get frustrated with him, come on shut up. You have no right to be angry. You need to understand that he is taking time out to help you, he has the right to refuse to help.

Details and keywords are important. The lazy guy got frustrated because I wanted the key words out of him. He claims that there was no difference that the instructor would know. If it was only so convinient. -sigh-

Lord, the patience you have given me is really quite commendable. Thank you Lord. Keep me loving and patient Lord.

Stay with me through this battle Lord.



=611= Relfections: Assesments

Ok, I am left with 6 minutes before lights out, so let’s make this quick.

Done with 2/5 stations with the assessment. Noticed a few things.

1. Grace is needed everywhere

During the assessment, we were paired in groups of three. We were supposed to go together for assessment but answer indivually. If one person screws up, we will be sent back to study again.

In my group, there was this person with bad attitude and he is lazy, almost everyone in the syndicate dislikes working with him. In my previous assessment, we got pulled back because of him too.

My other friend in the group, often laugh and make bad comments about him. I refuse to join in. Today, this friend, that laughs and make bad comments, screwed up too, but we weren’t sent back.

We were however sent back because of the first guy, the one that is lazy.

We really need grace to deal with everything. Don’t be arrogant.

Ok continued Tmr! 

=610= Words of Melancholy: Times

There are times when you have all the things you want but your body is so tired to do anything with them.

There are times when you seem like someone rather popular, but you just want to be close to one or two in the whole crowd.

There are times when you question and regret your own decisions when at that point in time, you wouldn’t have done anything else.

There are times when you wait and grief but nothing comes.

Oh my soul, will you stay still within me? 

Why are you so downcast?

Why are you so weak?

You have someone that loves you so much, can you stop wallowing in self pity? Come on.

Stand up, walk again.

Use all that God has given you.

Love all those that God has put in your life.

Forgive yourself of mistakes made. 

Be patient.

Won’t you walk with God again?

Yes Father, I will.


=608= Word: Clogged Lungs

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.

Through every single struggle, you are there.

Through every single cry, you are there.

Through every single heartbreak, you are there.

Through every single suffering, you are there.

When life goes out of control, worldly things gets stuck in my chest. It is as though your breath in me can no longer come out. It gets in, but the things of the world keeps the breath from going out.

It is a rather real thing. The chest feels tight and you overthink things. Overwhelming emotions enters and you wallow in unhealthy and ungodly thoughts.

Lord, release this tightness in my chest. Father, I want your breath to come out of me. I don’t want to speak ungodly words. I only want to speak words that are honourable to you.

Through every single struggle you are there. Take these clogged lungs and empty it Lord. Allow me to breathe your breath in and out of my body.

Help me Lord.

Help me Lord.

Help me Father.


=607= Word: The Night

I wonder if we can make it through the the night what will happen?

Perhaps we will treasure life a lot more. Perhaps we won’t take people we love for granted. Perhaps we will see the good. Perhaps the future won’t be so bad.

I just hope we can get through the night.

Hopefully the day will be fine! 🙂


Ps: I really hope my bunk mate won’t OOC. 😦 

Just a man struggling to live a God led life in a God strayed world